Posted by francesco on September 4, 2003, at 13:33:14
In reply to On the need for detail, clarity, and accuracy » Francesco , posted by DSCH on September 4, 2003, at 12:16:21
Ok. I'm trying not to feel hurt : ) But I am playing no game at all. And I can't see the inconsistencies in what I've written. Please understand that my mother-language is not English and I'm making a lot of effort to write in it (moreover Prozac isn't helping me to think clearly at the moment). I'm sorry if you had the sensation I was tricking you. Ok, I'm likely to have a lot of disturbs but I think multiple personality is not one of them : ) I'll try to exlain my problem again but I don't know what you found contradictory so I'm waiting for you questions : ) Anyway I really appreciate your support and the fact you're losing your time for my problems : )
When I'm not on meds I'm very easily distracted, When I'm on meds I tend to be overfocused. When I'm not on meds I tend to think very fast and so I can't concentrate. If I am worry about something I soon forget it because in the meantime other things will worry me. My main problem is daydreaming but my mood can be good. I can start a lot of things but I never finish one. For example I can decide to study, but after five minutes I can decide that I have to read the newspaper, but then a friend can call me, and I can stay two hours with him at the phone, and so on. Maybe I have OCD features even when I'm not on meds but my main problem is ADHD. For example I don't have compulsions ... When I'm not on meds I like to stay with people and I'm very bored when I'm alone (even if because I can't manage to do anything). I talk a lot (maybe too much), I tend to be witty, what depresses me is my lack of concentration but I don't think mood is my main problem.
When I'm on meds on the other side I tend to be very (too) concentrated on what I'm doing. This helped me a lot with study (made a me a perfectionist). But my mood is not that great (when I'm depressed on meds I'm depressed while without meds I'm just sad). I feel nervous and serious, and I can't stop doing a thing if the thing is not finished ... as I said I get very anxious if there are people around and this makes me drink.
When I'm not on meds on the other side I tend to be excited by people, I don't want to say I feel calm, but I'm agitated in a funny way (let's say like Woody Allen would be). On the other side when I'm on meds I resemble more to Kafka : )
So, sorry again if I made some confusion in the previous posts, what did you find incoherent ?
Thanks a lot for your time and care
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