Posted by Psycho D on August 29, 2003, at 2:15:38
Long story short...
I'm 18, I've been on ritalin, adderal, dexedrine, zoloft, paxil cr, and celexa for the mental disorders ADD, depression, and social anxiety (I believe this is my main problem). There was also a time where i felt helpless and abused all kinds of illegal drugs. After learning more, I discontinued all illegal drug use (clean and sober for 8 months now!) and decided to tackle this problem head on.
I was wondering if anyone can relate or has experienced symptoms similar to these, and what meds have worked for them:
It is as if I am often in a 'mental fog', i daydream alot, am always feeling rather blue and when i see someone i must communicate with it is as if i must lift myself out of this 'mental fog' to talk to them, but the fact that i am struggling during this conversation and am uncomfortable is very apparent to others. It is VERY difficult for me to make small, casual conversation and i never really enjoy it, I just endure it. I dread seeing anyone i know, even if theyre my friends, for fear of having to talk to them, and when i do it usually ends with them leaving with a sort of confused, awkward look on their face. I can't look people in the eye. I know longer go to social gatherings because I can't enjoy them anymore, or anything social for the matter. It's like i just don't enjoy people, like i'm really anti-social or something and normal "happy" people make me feel more abnormal and I feel worse. Sometimes however it is like i care TOO much about people and i don't enjoy them because i'm worried that they won't like ME. I feel so chemically imbalanced sometimes, like mentally disoriented i guess. These are my basic symptoms at their worst. Does anyone know how I feel and had success with meds??? I start my sr. year of highschool on wednesday and I don't know how i'll get through it. Thankyou so much for reading this long rambling, complaining, post.
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