Posted by River1924 on August 18, 2003, at 21:52:43
In reply to Re: Ropinirole, perfection thru drugs » River1924, posted by babak on August 18, 2003, at 19:05:25
I apologize if I insulted you. I recall being depressed at age 11, looking out the back window of a car. But that is when I became aware of it. I've rarely been otherwise as far as I can recall...except for a few times when drugs or some mild bipolar gene switches on and I become distinctly another person, chatty and euphoric. My long term depression and anxiety has given me a kind of personal amnesia. I can't really remember much about my own life. I can't lean on them or use them for comfort or use them as a reference for "normal." All I can do is try meds that make life less painful. Recently my father died of a stroke. I feel a certain jealousy. I've always promised myself to stay alive until both of my parents died. Now I have one to go and then, perhaps, I'll be free.
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