Posted by galkeepinon on July 31, 2003, at 2:11:38
In reply to Better living through chemistry., posted by HenryO on July 31, 2003, at 2:00:21
up until I was 19 I was ok, went through a break up with my fiance and all hell broke loose. Got severly depressed, went into my first psych hospital, went on my first antidepressant, don't know what went wrong. Family issues, environnment, put downs, I wish I could go back, do over have it turn out differently maybe with meds, maybe without. I don't know.........
I look back and wonder what happened to get me off track? When I started seeing shrinks, I got worse, all the stuff came out, it was my fault?? Seems that way.... I had to look at why my father wasnt there because he was an alcoholic/addict? I had to wonder why I chose to go across a stream while playing and get raped? Heck I was only 7. Can't I just put those things behind me? Do meds really work or is it (as someone mentioned in an earlier post this week) a fact of A LOT of hard, intense work w/o meds to get better? At this moment I wonder if thats what I may need to do, work that no med can do????? Interesting..........
> I was on tilt in kindergarten. My entire elementary school experience, I guess that's three quarters of my childhood, would have been very different if I had had medication. In highschool and college I medicated myself. After getting sober, I limped along. Eventually I saw through the subterfuge of shrinks blaming me. I demanded medication. I wish I had gotten actual medical help thirty years ago. I wish I had my money back from those talking cure empathy junkies who got in touch with my pain.