Posted by tmgirl on July 22, 2003, at 0:55:29
In reply to Re: PLEASE GIVE ADVICE, posted by Susy on July 21, 2003, at 9:58:55
Hi, thanks for posting. As far as wanting to go out and doing things ....what I mean is that I wish I had the energy to do these things with my family. I feel left behind and like you said, just going to the beach turns into a big thing. I too am most comfortable with just being at home while everyone else is out doing whatever. My life, I gave to my kids & hubby years ago. I have no ME anymore. I guess its hard to explain. I realize everyday more & more that I am depressed and have been for years. I was put on Zolaft about 9 years ago after the death of my brother. I took myself off after about 6 months. The last 2 years or so I feel like alot of things have suffered...mainly my marriage. The funny thing is, my hubby does not even know it. I try to tell him how I feel but to him all is well with the world and he doesnt understand how I am feeling or why. Sometimes I think Im going crazy. The best part of all this is that I love him so much, I dont want to live without him but yet sometimes hate living with him. Sometimes I think that I am changing but then I think he is the one who changed. I never would get on any meds because I have always felt that TRUE happiness and peace of mind comes from above. My hubby believes that too and doesnt support me on the effexor but it has helped so far I think. Who knows maybe nothing works for a broken spirit.
I just wish I could get my old self back.
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