Posted by Ame Sans Vie on April 19, 2003, at 8:15:24
I just woke up today at 6AM (!) feeling absolutely on top of the world... I'll no longer poke fun at the Carpenters for that song, lol. I never thought it was possible to feel so wonderful and yet still have a clear head, and no, I repeat, *no* side effects from the Lexapro!! The mild sexual dysfunction I was experiencing at first has completely subsided, and that in itself is enough to make you jump for joy, lol. I'm not going to bother raising my dose to 30mg on Tuesday as planned... at least I don't think so. I just don't think I could possibly feel any better. I haven't felt this good since Ecstasy, honest to God! Just for clarification purposes, I know it's not mania... hypomania, perhaps, as I'm cyclothymic, but I could sure live with that, lol.
In my last post I mentioned that I was going to the mall to meet with some old friends for the first time in years. I'm rejoining my old band as frontman (lead guitarist/lead vocals) and even have a date for next weekend!! I just want to jump out of my skin, I'm so thrilled!
To all of you who are still searching, just let me say-- I'm 20 years old. I've been through the gamut of medications and tons of therapy for seven long years. And then Forest comes out with this fantastic med and the timing couldn't have been better. I've tried Celexa... I just have to say to the critics/cynics, the difference between the two for me is as clear as night and day.
You may find this hard to believe, what with all the other great news I'm sharing, but I actually received my approval for full scholarship to university yesterday!! Guys, life kicks you in the ass sometimes, but it expects you to kick it right back. I know how hard it is, God do I know... but you've got to stay strong, keep faith... there *will* be a day that you can look back at your problems and say, "Well, that's just ancient history." I just wish with all my heart I could be there with each and every one of you when you finally get there, as it can be a long, hard road ahead, but worth every mile... worth every two steps forward, three steps back.
I will still be posting here regularly though, so I sure I hope I *do* get to see you all find that "magic bullet". Thanks so much to all of you for your wisdom and support, I love you all. And a very special thanks to Dr. Bob-- couldn't of done it without you, buddy! :-)
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