Posted by jay on March 11, 2003, at 18:24:43
In reply to Re: can you sit at home and do nothing? » jay, posted by Krissy P on March 11, 2003, at 15:07:47
> Hi Jay, I have to share on this one. It has been about a year since I really went out. I got the courage to go out last night, and see an old friend-it went great we had a good time. My point, try to work on feeling like you CAN go out. How long have you felt this way??
> Hang in there and no way man, we are never alone;)
> Keep posting,
> All the best always, Kristen
>
>Dear Kristen...well, it's been WAY too long, like and I am serious, about 4-5 years. I pushed it aside...I was so scared. I've almost pretty much lost the 1-2 max. friends I had. I went through this same thing about 10 years ago, and only now realized the connection. My social-phobia was off the scale, and it is still pretty buzzin'. Ya, I should have and tried so hard, to realize that as years go by and you can't leave your room, something is *absolutely* wrong. Doctors are so conservative with treatment, and only now lucked into a very open-minded GP who has refered me to a major psych. hospital.
I think one of my major issues is I came from a deeply loving and caring family, BUT I have a developmental disability (well...was labled with one in Grade One through Three..was told I'd have to go live in a 'group home'..but my parents would have none of that, and helped me majorly), but the thing is I *sometimes* can function "out there". I've gotten a couple of college degrees is one example, and I did have an amazing job helping handicapped adults and working as, believe it or not, a social worker. Like Tony (lostsailor), he is also a social worker, and we are kind of in similar shoes.
Med wise, the only one I can handle in large doses is Effexor, and even that I still have a hard time with. I need Remeron to put me to sleep, and an occassional benzo for relaxation.
Anyhow, Spring is one of my fave seasons, and I hope it 'awakens' me like it always does. Maybe somehow, I am going to try to leave the house. I guess we'll see.
So, thanks very much for listening...:)
Peace as always..Jay
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