Posted by Sadsack on February 24, 2003, at 15:19:53
In reply to Re: Hey EGR, how's the Wellbutrin mix going? » Sadsack, posted by EGR on February 22, 2003, at 17:12:47
> Hey EGR,
>I'll feel better when you tell me your BP is normal.
>I'm purging everything that I don't have a use for this very minute. I know I should save some of it, but I feel like I'm drowning in "stuff". I find myself really agitated when my husband wants to keep some of it. My mother in law does a garage sale in the summer and will sell all of it for me so I at least have a viable outlet :) I think I just want to "start over". I'd like to move away, get a new house, something! Guess that smacks of escapism. I started the Lex in November and am up to 20mg. I AM better, I get household tasks done. I am not a huge fan of cleaning and my girls are getting to the age where they help some but I have to follow them around to get it done right. I cook, daily, but if I had my "drothers" I'd rather not. I used to bake for relaxation but I was recently told I had low blood sugar. So now I can't eat the goodies I make (bummer!). I am working 30 hours a week in a job I like and it helps me claim a little bit of myself but it's stressful too. I really need to work for the budget to remain intact.
As far as getting out of bed. I am better at it, but I can honestly say, I can't ever remember a day in my entire life when I wanted to get out of bed.My husband is a nice guy but never really bought into the whole "two become one" principle in marriage. He is a sweet, kind thoughtful man who interacts great on a superficial level but doesn't seem capable of going deeper. So it get's a bit lonely trying to work through this when I get the impression he would prefer to not hear about my struggles. It frustrates him to feel helpless knowing he can't fix it. I just don't have any desire to make it an issue either-seems like too much work.
I guess I should say that overall I am truly better, just not "there". I am a woman of deep faith and that helps tremendously. I also have an incredible (albeit somewhat twisted) sense of humor and that helps too.
I'd just like to be myself again!
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