Posted by Ritch on February 15, 2003, at 10:42:09
In reply to Re: Ritch:Juggling Meds and Frustrating life » Ritch, posted by Tabitha on February 15, 2003, at 0:25:06
> Thanks Ritch, I did find that inspiring. My thoughts... Once you find a med regime that keeps you halfway stable, acceptance is the next big challenge. Not just accepting the diagnosis, but accepting the reality of living with the condition, the imperfection of the available medical treatment, and the gap between what life is, and what you think it could have been without this burden.
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> I'm 9 years post-diagnosis, and just beginning to realize meds won't erase the condition. It feels a lot better to accept that than to fight it.
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My hurdle now is: "imperfection of the available medical treatment". I've went through the acceptance of the diagnosis thing pretty quick, but it took quite some time to work through those "gap issues" you speak of. I finally found the "gap issues" mostly a mirage after awhile. I began to realize that I had known quite a few people over many years that clearly weren't mentally ill that were considered "ne'er do-wells" (but were happy), and other quite successful people (business/family) who weren't mentally ill, but .. they were just very UNhappy people! The med juggling hassle is starting to wind down some because I've tried nearly everything already. (Not that the stuff doesn't work-it's always tolerability issues, always) I am starting to lose my skepticism about the helpfulness of therapy-and that's a good sign. But my pdoc and I are avid experimenters, so that will still go on with the meds. I just need to be able to "multi-task" and accept imperfect results with the various tasks and not abanadon them because of that.
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