Posted by PodWoman on February 4, 2003, at 17:40:21
In reply to Re: Topamax long term OCD bing eater, posted by Karmagirl on February 4, 2003, at 16:30:22
Hi Karma,
Thanks for the speedy reply. What's eating me? Nothing that I know of....and I think I've done a fair job of investigating this angle through a bonafide eating disorder specialist Psycologist. Don't mean to sound cranky, it's not you. Your suggestion is a good one, just "been there, done that". It's been a frustrating journey to say the least. I have had more therapists of diferent types over the last 10 years...I hate to add them up. I actually did a comprehensive diagnostic with a doc last spring who was able to get me off the Valium (Xanax) my Gen. Prac. doc gave me for panic attacks and tried a BUNCH of different meds to see how I reacted to them and vice versa. I felt like the human Guinea Pig (LOL). I have also prayed A LOT for guidance. I call myself "Podwoman" because that'sd how I feel...Like I'm trapped in another body that looks and acts like me (somewhat)but in reality it's not the "old" or "true" me at all.I was thin and fit until shortly after I got pregnant with my son 10 years ago. Then all my chemistry went haywire. Everything that was under the radar came out full force, along with some new stuff. Basically, the docs tell me I was always a canidate, just waiting for a catylist. It was more like a torpedo!! My husband didn't know me, wondered not IF I would leave him, but WHEN. When I began meds, my son (8 at the time) asked me out of the blue one day, "Why are you being so nice to us?" Pretty touching and sad, eh? He & I talked about it more recently and he said I've been "different" and "better than before" for about a year. Wow. I never knew HOW BAD I had been until this new diagnostic. My husband admits it's been scary at times. **Sigh** I hate to think about all the wasted time when my kids were tiny. Onward and upward...
I'll let you know how my appt goes tomorrow a.m. Thanks for the support,
Podwoman
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