Posted by fuzzymind on December 13, 2002, at 23:59:58
In reply to Re: Extreme Anger...anyone with sim feelings?..Please. » fuzzymind, posted by jay on December 13, 2002, at 15:08:27
> > I have been very angry , defensive and irritable for going on 2 decades. Getting a cat 3 years ago has calmed me down a bit, but I am still enraged when someone disagrees with me ,and I relive events, vividly, over and over again with peole who not bullied me and used me as an emotional punching bag, but with people who simply disagreed with me, or strangers who I had encounters with. I am very insecure, have bare minimal self-esteem, and suicidal. SO much self-hatred, hatred of my parents who still deny I was suicidal or depressed in HS ieven though I attempted suicide on more thatn one occasion!!! YOu aren't alone , but I don't have any solutions.
> Have you, or you, in any type of therapy...and/or are you taking medications?
Tried therapy and medications 6 years ago for 3 months. My shrink gave me an umtimatum to get better or she would stop treatment. I stopped and I totally lost it. Tried again with the same therapist beginning of 2001...no improvement...last saw her end of 2001. I beleive I was making a little progreess at the time i saw her 6 years ago, but the ultimatum she gave me freaked me out. I NEVER meet the right people