Posted by Gracie2 on December 9, 2002, at 22:02:35
In reply to Re: Newsflash for everyone, please please read., posted by susan C on December 9, 2002, at 20:42:20
To mouse getting better:
I've had a little set-back myself in the psychiatrist department. The last time I called to make my usual appointment with him, the secretary told me he was gone. I freaked. I said,
"Gone! What do you mean gone, where is he!" She said he came in one day with a box, cleaned out his desk and told her good-bye, she doesn't know why or where. I said, "My God I really need this medication I'm taking and I don't have any refills, what am I supposed to do!" She said that one of the other doctors in the office would authorize one monthly refill of all medications,
which would give us abandoned patients time to find another psychiatrist. But she couldn't schedule an appointment for me with one of the other doctors because none of them were accepting
new patients until at least March.Well, for the first time in quite awhile, I just came unglued. I paged my husband, although
(I know now) it disgusts him when I call him at work so I can unravel in front of him. I started bawling that I couldn't start over with a new doctor and new drugs, I just couldn't do it. He was able to calm me down some (again) and then I was able to take it from there. I just forced myself to sit down and think it through. I decided that if a new doctor wanted to jump the gun and take me off these drugs that were finally working so well for me, I would just move on to the next doctor on my provider list and hope that our thinking was a little more in sync.So now I'm dealing with that problem but, you know, at least I'm dealing with it. I'm having trouble finding somebody that accepts my insurance plan, is accepting new patients and can see me fairly soon. I'm sailing right along on these medications, but there needs to be a captain at the wheel. Now I'm starting to feel kind of like that I'm taking in a lot of new information, things that everybody else knew all along, mostly how to do things in moderation. But all this data that my brain is processing now is coming at me really fast and I'm getting confused.
I don't know if this is normal or if it's time to cut back on dosage, and I sure as hell know now that I'm not qualified to make this decision myself. But I'm not going to panic! I'm starting to suspect that, underneath all the craziness, I have a really fine mind to work with, that I wasn't completely successful at all my attempts to destroy it.Whew! These be some really hard lessons we're learning. But at least we're learning.
My prayers are with you mousie-
Gracie
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