Posted by Mr Cushing on December 6, 2002, at 23:20:04
In reply to My Mom just died - please pray for me, posted by BarbaraCat on December 6, 2002, at 15:15:32
Barbaracat, I'm sorry, I can understand completely what you're going through. I lost my Mom to breast cancer when I was just 16. It's the most horrible experience that anybody can ever go through knowing that you'll never see the person that brought you into this world, again, in this world. On the good side of things, you had a long life with her. You'll have a lot of memories. And your Mom lived a long and full life and managed to pass out in a very quick period instead of suffering for months on end. I don't mean for that to sound insensitive, but after seeing as much death as I have, if it's good and quick, I'm happy. After all, death is inevitable.However, I don't believe that death is really the end to anything. I believe that the reason we're put here on this Earth in the first place is to see how strong we are. How well we'd manage up to the next phase in our lives. We're put through certain amounts of pain just to see if we can tolerate it, and you know, in most cases, the pain that you do go through, if and when you're able to deal with it, actually helps you become a better person.
And, your Mom is only gone from you in the physical sense. It's been 8 years now that mine has been gone and I can still feel her here with me. Sometimes it's really strong... like you just have that vibe that she's around somewhere close... Like you said about your Guardian Angel, I believe my Mom is mine, and I never could have made it through everything that happened since she has passed on without her watching over me.
I'm Bi-Polar and now even during my worst depressions, when you get those suicidal thoughts for no reason at all, while they get stronger, there's another thought that always enters my head... It's her telling me that she's with me and I have to keep going and that at the end of this road, once my life has ended, she'll be waiting for me. And, besides... she's no longer got that old body to lugg around... she's free now. Whenever I've seen my Moms in my dreams or anything, and God, could I write a book about those... VERY vivid, like nothing compared to the side effects of any of these medications.... she's got her long black hair back and is in perfect health and incredibly happy.
So yeah, I'll pray to my Moms that she'll help your Mom find her way through to the other side without too much confusion, and I'll pray for you that you won't let this affect you too strongly... she had a very long and productive life, and when it's your time to go, it's just your time...
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