Posted by freedom2001 on October 31, 2002, at 20:52:35
In reply to Re: I FEEL SO SUICIDAL! OCD IS HELL! » freedom2001, posted by Fenny3 on October 30, 2002, at 20:08:09
> > OCD is indeed a devastating disease. It has torn apart my youth and adult life so many times. I got it when I was 14. It was only after 2 months of intense prayer that God healed me. At that time, I took no medication, no CBT and no natural therapy whatsoever at all. Only prayer. I'm convinced that there is a living God.
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> Oh it sucks rocks, I'm with you there. The first obsession I remember is around puberty (something there maybe? Ack! Hormones!), it was an anxious feeling, the compulsion became drinking a glass of water. At least it was healthy. Many of my symptoms are cleanliness or routine oriented. How insidious!So do you have obessions/compulsions sometimes or most of the times now? I'm so glad to hear that your husband and family are supportive and understanding. That's very important to people like us.
So are you a christian or a free thinker?
I just read from a testimonial that a muslim girl who's some sort of paralytic was healed by Jesus Christ after 3 years of praying and humbling herself before God and she's now a powerful witness for God. There's even a book about her. I got a more positive outlook and more hopes after reading this article. I believe that while the search for a better drug is still on, miracles from God do happen!
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> I'm glad you found some relief with God. Prayer is also meditation, is also behaviour therapy, is also positive reinforcement. I pray, in a sense, even though I am not a religious person.
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> I think I'm sane too. My doc said he would give me a certificate to prove it! Of course he was kidding, but it would be nice sometimes to have the documentation. I could mount it on my wall, or pull it out whenever I thought anyone was looking at me sideways.If he gives you a cert, pls ask him to send me one as well. :)
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> I think it's harder being in the middle sometimes. Not loopy, where you wouldn't have a clue, and not completely "normal" either. I don't know about the supernatural evil though, I don't have any room in my head for anyone (or thing) else!I remembered that when I was young, I would keep seeing 3 demons in my dream dragging me through a wall. And I would wake up and run to the living room to bang the door. It could be some sort of demonic posession, I'm not sure. But the possibility is there.
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> I usually take 75 mg EffexorXR daily, I'm off to try to conceive my 2nd child. I have the best time pregnant - I feel great, I'm so happy, and no symptoms at all! Again, I have to wonder...hormones?It is so enviable and nice to hear that you have no symptoms at all. So does it mean you have no more obsessions/compulsions or just a little and when they come, you can simply ignore them?
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> The effexor does well for me mostly, along with the books and the self directed therapy that is. My husband is wonderful, very supportive. My parents are coming around too, getting over the stigma of my "disorder". I tell them I think it's genetic and glare at them...hee hee.Coming to genetic, do you worry about your baby having the defect gene? (God forbid!). Have you discussed this with your doc and secret officer (SO)?
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> You sound like your doing well, the first thing is to talk it out. Drag it (the OCD), kicking and screaming in to the light, so to speak. There are more of us than there are "normal" people, I think. Judging from this board we are in good company too.I think since there are 'so many' people with this condition, research should be sped up significantly, not only in USA, but also in Singapore. I mean the drug companies should set up clinical trials in Singapore as well.....
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> How's your family life? Also, did you enjoy the above novel? phew. sorry about that. I guess I'm chatty tonight.I'm struggling to earn enough money to get married to my significant other (SO)....You sound like a very fun person to chat with. Your husband is fortunate to have a chatty wife like you. :)
God bless.
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> Fenny
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