Posted by susan C on October 9, 2002, at 11:14:52
In reply to Re: verapamil » susan C, posted by bookgurl99 on October 8, 2002, at 23:08:57
hi,
I never tried Zoloft in my SSRI days...all the others tho, especially after Prozac pooped out. My Dx is currently bipolar two and I can not take any ssri, they tend to activate manic.So far, I feel, just even. I have felt emotionless (depakote and perhaps ambien, read sedated) This is new, so perhaps balanced is a good word. It is hard to explain. The other day, I found myself humming along with the music, moving around...I expanded a recipe, with out even thinking, then, imagine! I was cooking! and I didnt get too agitated...I am still very suspicious.
this has got to go for several months..for me to say, yes, it isnt coincidence, it is the medication. The ULTIMATE test would then be to STOP it and see what happens, but I havent had the strength or courage to do that with depakote, I doubt I would be able to do it with verapamil. So, it would be nice to have a 'real' life back, instead of this roller coaster of ups and downs. I like the euphoria of the ups, but they tend to be very unrealistic ideas and are followed by devastating lows. Gosh, something just, normal would be nice. Normal, where I get an idea to do something, follow through on it, enjoy it and move on to the next thing.
Knowing with confidence that my moods will not trip me up unexpectedly, that I can depend on how I will feel from one day to the next. Gosh!! What a concept.
Maybe I will start a tread over in Social...
What Do You Want When You Are Well?
or
What will tell you when you are well?Heres to the day
mouse
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