Posted by Panic_Attack on August 15, 2002, at 12:33:06
I have a really bad problem and i need advice before i lose my mind and kill somebody or myself. Ive been struggling with really bad anxiety... (due to drug overdose) NOW i cant sleep without pills. Anyways. My anxiety is SO BAD.... actually i dont think its anxiety.. its ANGER. Im full of anger for no reason. Im always mad. I hate everybody. I have not had a boyfriend in yearssss.... I have a very few friends. At work... i have conflicts with people everyday. I have a problem with outbursts. I work for a call center doing customer service. I deal with assholes all over the country (its a dining program) People call SCREAMING they didnt get a $1.50 FREAKING credit back.. so i MUTE them and say "what a fuking ASSHOLE" and my supervisors hear me and yell at me. I cant help it. I am very loud... im always frustrated and angry. ALWAYS! Im like a chick Eminem. My heart is always racing all day.... blood pressure boiling. I feel like fuking killing people sometimes. I picture myself shooting people. I live in MIAMI, FLORIDA. The people here are so MEAN... all these cubans are pathetic. I grew up around this hateness. I lose my temper so quickly. Everyday my supervisors call me in thier office to scold me on my outbursts and my cursing. I HONEST TO GOD... cannot help it. I always break down in front of them and start crying. WHY? I cant help it. I hate my mother. All we do is fight. Im 21 and still live with her. I have a drinking problem. Im only happy when i drink a couple beers... calms me the fuk down. I take Serzone 50mg 1 time a day (before bedtime). WHAT SHOULD I DO???? IM SO FUCKING ANGRY RIGHT NOW.. NO REASON!!! Im at work.. i hate my job. I hate everything. Should i increase my serzone?? Should i try another medication? Should I kill myself? I need help
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