Posted by Kari on August 12, 2002, at 7:43:22
In reply to Re: schizotypal personality disorder » Kari, posted by Dinah on August 11, 2002, at 14:22:17
>I've gradually come to believe the blunted emotions are a combination of strong dissociative skills and some Aspergerish qualities. >
Does anyone else in your family have similar dissociative skills or Aspergerish traits?
>Have you looked into Asperger's? I understand that there is some diagnosis overlap. >
Thanks for the tip. I looked at some information now and some of it seems to fit.
> I've got to say, SSRI's can cause the negative symptoms in just about anyone. And can certainly exacerbate them in vulnerable people. I always say (and this would be one of the schizotypal things according to my therapist) that SSRI's work by increasing the tension and distance between your feeling self and your thinking self, and since I already have a high degree of tension between the two, that SSRI's cause me to overshoot the desired distance. I don't know if that makes any sense.>
It makes a lot of sense. I don't however, experience a worsening of negative symptoms on SSRIs. They simply have no great effect on them besides making everything so much easier due to the absence of depression and anxiety. On a high dose all I can feel is an unconditional sense of satisfaction and well being. This is not so disturbing as I don't have access to a full range of emotions anyway. Do you find that SSRIs increase the severity of your dissociative tendencies?
> They really ought to change that classification name.>
>I do have what some people may consider odd perceptions I guess. I am extremely aware of what is happening in my body, and I might experience anxiety or anger, for example as being broken into isolated physical effects, rather than saying I'm angry or I'm anxious. And I firmly believe I pick up the emotional energy of other people. My perceptions are usually quite accurate however, so I'm not sure that they are odd at all. >
Me, too :) After many years of being overwhelmed by such intense feelings such as anger and depression, I lost the ability to feel. Now all emotions appear to be physical sensations-extreme physical tension and feeling on the verge of explosion instead of anger, for instance. I can describe feeling that "nothing in my body works anymore" instead of recognizing this as depression. As difficult as this is, the alternative was far worse.
I also pick up on people's moods, even when they themselves aren't aware of it. It is obvious to me, for instance, when a family member is on the verge of a depressive crisis.
Your perceptions don't seem to be strange. Perhaps your therapist is uneasy about the fact that he can't hide his moods around you :)
By the way, do you also feel that you sometimes project your feelings or their intensity onto other people?
>Oh no, it's of enormous help just to find someone I can discuss this with>
I feel the same way :)
All the best,