Posted by Fuscia on July 19, 2002, at 22:21:44
In reply to Re: Hi Geezer-cost difference, and etc., posted by Geezer on July 18, 2002, at 15:13:29
Hi Geeze, (the format is a bit screwy - I saved this post because a t-storm forced me to log off.)
Thanks for the feedback on your family. I have wondered if some of my
relatives have had undiagnosed bi-polar, but it's difficult to say for
back in the 30's through 60's you tended to not want to talk about such
things, and not want to go for help for such things, unless you were
forced to the hospital.I think the anger was a result of frustration at not getting one's way,
so that would be an impulse-type reaction. For my family, we were not
taught patience or to be responsible - we were simply spoiled kids. My
mother is naive and gullible, and spoiled us rotten by not expecting us
to help out by having certain responsibilities - we were and still are
her babies, and she won't ask you to do anything. She also worries
relentlesly about us to this day, and thinks that if each of us one a
million dollars all of our troubles would be gone.My dad wasn't around much when I was growing up since
he was an engineer going from one job to another, which meant we would
see him on holidays, and in between jobs. He enjoyed being by himself,
and doing his own thing. The first time he lost his temper big time with my mother
was about 2 years after they got married in '49. He was in the army at
the time. While in Japan he had an affair with a local girl (she became
pregnant and asked my father what should she do - she later had an
abortion according to the girl) there and my mother found the girl's
love letters in his coat pocket. The girl had became pregnant and
asked my father what should she do. My mom was upset, but he was even more upset about being caught, and she said he had the look on his face like he wanted to kill
her as he stood with his arm over his head leaning against the cupboard
looking down at her. If looks could kill. My dad never did have any
substance abuse, just a short temper when things didn't go his way. His
mother had a problem with her temper. My dad had a difficult time
showing love, and would vocalize his hate for us instead on occasion.
My brother's schizophrenia episodes started when he was about 18 and at
the time was just starting to experiment with drugs like shrooms,
marijuana, and I don't know what else. It was scary for everyone when
he went throug his episodes. I must say that things have gotten better
as we have gotten older, at least for some of my brothers. One used to
be like a human tornado when he would lose his temper - you could see
the trail of debris after he would get frustrated while working on his
car - explosive is the word. He hasn't lost it like that in many years.
We were never taught how to handle dissapointment or to be patient -monkey
see monkey do, we learned much of it from watching how my parents handled
life's obstacles.Back to Prozac. I paid $2.96 for Prozac 20mg capsule from my local
pharmacist, and $1.90 per capsule (including S&H) from a Canadian pharmacy.
The Canadian pharmacy that I order from also sells Depakote in generic form,
and they sell Lamactil, besides Prozac. Send me an e-mail if you want
there address.
I'm sorry to hear about the hand tremours that your mom is experiencing
from the Trilifon. I've never heard of that, I assume it is an
antipsychotic. It bothers me that this is a side effect that can last
even after the medicine is discontinued, and it effects women more than
men. I always suggest folks with this problem to try taking Brewer's
yeast or Nutritional yeast since this product contains many of the
essential amino acids and a nice balance of the B vitamins. The amino
acids and B vits could help relieve the hand tremours. I'd suggest
taking it daily for a few weeks to see if it helps if she does try it.
I like the taste of Twinlabs brand, called Natural Nutritional Yeast. I
take it a half hour after a carbohydrate-type breakfast of cereal or
bagel.The only thing that I can see would describe bi-polar for me (and I have
yet to learn all of the types of bi-polar illness, boy so many
catagories-you are more up on it than I am), but I have a problem
with spending, but this could just be a sign of the times and never
being taught to be responsible. I get this awful urge to go out and
spend, and it is usually on stuff we don't need and find it difficult
to stop. Only until it is over and done to I realize I've done a no-no,
and hubby has me return some of the items.I get depressed more times than not when September comes, and by the time
May comes I am going full blast with gardening, and feeling very up and
elated like nothing can stop me. It's a great feeling. I overdo it
physically during the warmer months without any exhaustion. I can use our
gas-powered weed eater/brush cutter with 3 refills of gas on a hot steamy
day. But, hey, I got the weeds chopped, so I accomplished something
for this "mania". I'm slow to get started in the mornings and go full
blast by afternoon into evening and most times I do not feel like
preparing meals for I have no appetite. I believe this to be a side
effect of SSRI's, for since I've started taking them I have hardly an
appetite. I was bulimic for years and then stopped a few years ago
and just did the sneak-eating and binging, but I never would get overweight
for by the time spring arrived I would burn it all off from over-exertion.
So, my doc says maybe a bit of seasonal affective disorder thrown in.
He also thinks I may have borderline personality disorder for I used
to self-inflict pain to myself by hitting my head very heard with my fists.
Low self esteem, self-hate. It would make me feel good just to do this.
Kinda like you feel after vomiting due to nausea - you feel exhausted,
tired, and drained. This feeling would be what took the place of the
anger and frustration I would feel prior to losing my temper with
myself. I would then cry very hard and fall asleep. I haven't done
this in a few years, though, so that is good.When all is said and done, my brother with schizophrenia is one of my
favourite brothers for I love his wit, and I got my love of the
outdoors-hiking-and gardening from my dad.Okay old man, you can call me Granny for just last year I had to get
prescription glasses to help me read the fine print. Turned 39 this
year - boy, get me my Zimmerframe........Thanks for "listening" and sharing.
Fuscia
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