Posted by Cece on May 28, 2002, at 11:47:37
I have been interviewed by the NY Times for a story about Reverse Seasonal Affective Disorder (summertime crash with depression, anxiety, desperation).
I am BPII, and did not feel that I could speak meaningfully about my RSAD without talking about my BPII disorder- I believe that they are connected as both are cycling disorders. Also, the mood stabilizers and TCA that I take have helped substancially in lessening my RSAD symptoms and have given me the ability to manage them better.
I am struggling with the issue as to whether to fully identify myself in the article or to remain completely anonymous, or to be identified by an old nickname that almost noone knows, general location and general age. All options are available to me. So far I have chosen the partial ID.
There is still, even in this day and age much fear of and prejudice and judgement about psychiatric disorders. I am very careful who I discuss my disorders with- some people just don't get it at all, and some are even suspicious that I am just exaggerating everyone's normal 'ups and downs'. Other people want to debate it with me and put me on the spot.
I have fears that my career could be affected. I don't want to jeopardize my financial security- just having these disorders has jeopardized it enough. I want to do what is best for me, and I don't want to try to be a hero.
But, on the other hand, I feel it is important to speak out and as much
as possible to come out of the closet. It adds legitimacy to my story,
and gives verification that I am a real and not made up person to give
my full name. It might help others in the same boat to gain courage and
to feel less ashamed about having an 'invisible disability'.What would you do? Has anyone else been in this position?
I have to make this decision quickly, I believe by tommorow (Wednesday). Quick feedback would be very appreciated.
Thanks,
Cece
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