Posted by Chloe on May 6, 2002, at 19:13:58
In reply to Re: Update » janejj, posted by IsoM on May 6, 2002, at 15:55:20
> It does seem to come & go, doesn't it? Some called it a swing, I think of a yo-yo. Trouble is when one is feeling at the low end, it feels like it's going to be permanent & never improve, doesn't it? Even after years of this (& really knowing what to expect), I'm always convinced that I'll never feel better again. It's that powerful a feeling. I'm not sure I'd want to hang on if it never did get better.
IsoM,
Your post really hit a chord with me. When I crash (or fly) I feel it's permanent. I start planning to never go to the supermaket again, or do any chores because I feel nothing matters. And I am sure my mood will never pop up again.
Well, in a day, a week or maybe longer, it ALWAYS does come back up. And I feel so angry for cutting myself off from life and support. Sometimes I even feel "stupid" or "retarded" that I just can't learn that my moods are not permanent. Maybe some day I will get it. But so far, I still am convinced that my current mood is the only mood, forever and ever...In a way, I wish! Then I could plan something. With an unstable mood, planning an event or vacation or an interview is a gamble.Anyway...Thanks IsoM. I really enjoy reading all your posts. You seem very knowledgeable about supplements, etc. An area I am exploring with enthusiasm.
I read on PSB that you like to garden...I wonder if things are starting to blossom up there. It's wonderful here. My perennials are back! And the weeds are coming fast too!
Chloe
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