Posted by sue doe on March 7, 2002, at 21:37:40
In reply to Re: Progressive neurodegenerative process???, posted by JohnX2 on March 7, 2002, at 19:00:03
Thanks John. That's the idea. I want to learn who I am once I escape this medicated life. It was frightening to consider a degenerative brain disease! I did write a poem about it, by the way. It was pretty morbid. but I'm feeling better this evening.
Brain Drips
Brain drips,
Drips away.
Soggy-bread brain.
Squeeze it, let it leak.Pills to fix it.
Pills to melt it.
Which came first?
Has Dr. dealt it?Try another drug to see if
This one was not right for me.
Just like fashion,
Trying on.
Another drug, a different song.We seek to find a normalcy.
Who is normal? It’s not me.
Normal is a farce, you see.I had a friend once who had recovered from cancer once after horrible sessions of chemo. When she was diagnosed again, she simply decided, no more chemo. She didn't think it was worth it. I guess we need to count the costs. If being dumbed down by medicines is the best way of dealing with my disease, I would rather live less days, only fuller days. Thanks for letting me be me.
Thus ends day five. The worst thing today was that I ate a box of doughnuts, at least most of it. I need to stop this eating. My son has been quite cruel to me. This follows a pattern of always loosing the men in my life. I loose love, then I eat. I understand why my father's leaving hurt me. And I understand why my husband's desertion hurt me (he's back now). but I never believed my son could hurt me too. This always leads to eating, self abuse. I need to rise above it. Day six, I hope to succeed!!
Sue Doe (Nym)
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