Posted by anaya on January 5, 2002, at 18:10:51
In reply to Re: Still confused and on St. John's Wort » anaya, posted by jimmygold70 on January 5, 2002, at 12:16:39
> Did you read my account concerning St. John's Wort ?
Yes, thank you. I printed out the info from The Natural Pharmacist, though have mostly skimmed it. Very thorough. thank you.
I took it to be in support of St. John's Wort for mild to moderate depression, which is what I experience. I can get out of bed and function (except for being unemployed) and am not "severely" depressed. St. John's Wort did work for me in the past, though I don't know the dosage as I was using tincture. Though I don't think it will help with very mild OCD (I "type" words over and over) nor with the BPD.Anyway, I feel the St. John's Wort might be adequate for the depression, but am hoping for something stronger and more definitive for my other concerns. Therefore, I am following through with locating a psychiatrist and in fact, was informed that there IS one in this podunk village after all. Which means 5 min. drive rather than 1-2 hours if I like her.
I am grateful for this opportunity. However, I am noticing that I am existing with this self inflicted daily stigma that I am "screwed up," and I think of it quite often. And am wondering if all the attention I am focussing on what is "wrong" with me is actually making me more depressed. Am I really ill or am I just trying to medicate stagnant energy and lack of movement in my life? Like, if I jumped in and took a risk with my life, sought out joyful experiences, and "distracted" myself with "work" would I be enlivened. Or am I getting real about problem that has existed for a long time and taking determined measures to reclaim my life. It is very Saturn and inherited of me to see "doom and gloom" instead of juicing the sweet, spunky, and talented woman I am But again, this is what the depression seems to fog up and the fabulous me shrinks under the illusions, fear, and apathy of this "mild" depression.
sorry for the rant. due to the typing OCD, I type very fast and far.
yes, I read the info. You appear very resourceful. Your time and thought is much, much appreciated.
anaya,/
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