Posted by shellir on December 23, 2001, at 17:24:55
In reply to Re: methadone?, posted by stjames on December 23, 2001, at 16:45:43
> I keep debating between opiates vs unilateral ect to get me back home and back to my business.
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> Would you clarify for me ? Are you trying to come off opiates or was the switch to methadone an attempt to find a better opiate as treatment for your depression ?After years of success with nardil, finally in my upper 40s, nardil lost it's effectiveness. I tried augmenting lamictal, topomax, etc. etc. , then tried parnate, no success.
Found pdoc last summer prescribed oxycontin for my depression. Worked great, although I could still feel the underlying depression each day until the opiate kicked in. I have had to go up three times and the last time it cost me out of pocket over $1,000 per month. Told pdoc couldn't afford so he switched me to high level of methadone. Didn't have the same anti-depressant effects, was also in high stress part of my business year (xmas). Became highly suicidal, forced into hospital, detoxed from over 100mg of methadone a day. Told at U of Penn that I "just" needed long term therapy and was discharged.
Terrible depression now manifesting as horrible pain in my chest (same as before I ever started nardil). Over this weekend I am taking a minimal amount of methadone (which I still have from my last pdoc who I fired) and waiting to talk to someone about unilateral ect hopefully tomorrow. Am willing to try to get out of deep hole and not worry about getting "unpopular" drugs. Live in D.C., staying at parents out of state. The methadone does take away the depression; I don't see it as a long term solution because I have no one to prescribe it and detox centers will only give it to you once a day. So I am confused, (in answer to your question).
Sorry so long, but this is what happens when you are in another city severely depressed without friends and work and have access to a computer! Do have appointment with excellent pdoc in d.c., but not for three weeks and presently unable to tolerate the severity of this depression.
Shelli
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