Posted by Pamela Lynn on November 18, 2001, at 4:04:21
In reply to Re: Borderline Personality Disorder Meds » sherryM, posted by sherryM on November 17, 2001, at 1:08:11
Oh Sherry...I sure do know what you feel like..the "I would rather not exist part". I too have BPD; and BPD is tough to treat. I have been down in the place where you are now and I have two little ones myself..If not for THEM, I wouldv'e tossed in the towel. I also have a great support team w/Doctors, Therapist, ect.
I don't know if it will help you, but I take 225 mg of Effexor (NOT Effexor XR). I have been on every med. known to man for my depression (also am bi-polar!) and finally, after all these years I got put on the Effexor and things started changing for the better. I am now not on ANY mood stabilizers and I take Xanax for my panic attacks. I also take Zyprexa for when I am feeling psychotic-due to the BPD.
PLEASE Sherry, don't give up hope..think about your children when all else fails.
I am including my email address here if you want to write to me....I would love to hear from you.
P.L.
> Well, I don't know why my message didn't show up so here it goes again. I have been recently diagnosed with BPD. I was told two years ago by my old therapist that I may be bipolar 2. I am currently taking neurontin 2700 and wellbutrin 150, a well as klonopin when needed for anxiety attacks. I feel no better after being on this for a month. I am more depressed now and recently started back at my old job and have bouts of crying. I was in an outpatient program at a hospital. I feel the doctors don't care or know what they are doing. I recently met with a new therapist that knows alot about BPD and DBT so I am hopeful. I just want to get well, get on the right meds. I am currently in a relationship of 9 months but my illness is puttin a big strain on it. He is trying to be understanding and supportive. I am financially behind after taking a 7 week leave from work to go to the hospital program that I don't feel helped me much. I am a widowed mom of 4 children. This all adds to my stress which definatley doesn't help the depression. I still have suicidal thoughts continually. I would rather just not exist.
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