Posted by pathetic_n_useless on November 10, 2001, at 15:40:59
In reply to Re: what do I do now?, posted by PaulB on October 24, 2001, at 12:31:13
what I wrote before I've left below. I've been on mirtazapine (remeron in Us, zispin in UK) for almost 2 weeks. I was feeling v suicidal on thursday last week so I tried to get an urgent GP appt. First available one was tuesday 13th but I said I couldnt wait that long so had a 5min one on friday. I had So I went Fri morning and I had to wait an hr and a half. It was the same
GP I last. She said an immediate access clinic 5min appt wasn't the appropriate place to talk n when I tried to explain why I was told to go there she said she wasn't having a go at me about it.We kept getting interrupted every minute or so by various people like the nurse wanting advice. She said not much she can do even if I
am feeling suicidal n thinking of doing something (and I was specific about what I had planned. and told her how bad I felt) She said it was my choice n couldn't stop me as I wasn't sectionable so she couldnt make me go to hospital but that she couldn't see anything positive about it- mentioned if didn't work and stuff like that.I
said the only thing that I can see that is positive is if it works! Told me
to try toget away for a few days ( I cant cos of my pets ) or just a day to take the
focus off me and be with other people but there's not really anyone I can go to. and if anyone talks to me at all right now I just burst into tears. I mean I have trouble going out the front door cos of anxiety so suggesting going out for a walk isn't gonna work! She said we'd talk again on Tuesday but I mean what's the point?! She wont have any new suggestions and its only for 10 mins then. There's no way I'm seeing the same psychatrist before n there isnt another one. I'm just so fed up n crying all the time n I
cant stop I hate it.I just don'tknow what to do.
> > Hi. I'm 24 yrs old. I've been depressed and suffered with PTSD and panic attacks for about 5 yrs. i saw a psychiatrist a few times but he decided I wasn't depressed at all but had a personality disorder (borderline I think). He says no medication will help me. I havent seen him for a year because he was judgmental and got angry with me for taking too long for an appointment (45 mins instead of the usual 10!) and wrote this in a letter to my GP and psychologist.We just didnt geton. Unfortunately in the UK there is a shortage of psychiatrists and there is no other one that I can see. My GP has tried 3 drugs (mirtazapine up to 45mg, paroxetine up to 60 and efexor up to 150) he now says he doesnt hink medication will help. I've been having CBT for 2 years but still feel just as suicidal and self harm a lot.My psychologist thinksI am depressed and have PTSD but not borderline personality disorder. I tried to hang myself and i told my GP. He just said go back to see him in a month and when I did he said there was no point in doing so if I wasnt on medication. I feel so alone and depressed and spend most of my time in bed because I just dont see the point or how things will get any better. I don't know what to do anymore.
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