Posted by adamie on July 28, 2001, at 0:57:16
In reply to Re: Nightmmares from missing an effexor dose, strange? » kid_A, posted by dreamer on July 27, 2001, at 8:06:57
i stopped taking paxil 7 days ago or so. the second day off paxil I started to have some heavy nightmares. yet i was starting to feel better. then 4 days off paxil i was beggining to feel really decent. but still some very strong nightmares. it was strange how i could feel decent, much better from before yet have such extreme nightmares.they seemed extremely real. hmmm hard to remember them.
one i would be on my bike and someone would be on a bike chasing me. this chase would go on quite alot. then my sister would be there for some reason on her bike. we reach the grass from the concrete and the guy is catching up. he is going after her. so i decide to try and save her. i throw something at him. maybe a pine cone. i missed. my bike freezes and he heads straight for me. he somehow infects me with something, a virus, decease, or a curse. i fall down into the grass. i begin to feel all physicall numb. my hands lose their ability to feel. then my face. i try to go for help. there is a school bus. at this point i can hardly move and my face seems like it is turning into plastic. i dunno where my sister went. then i eighter woke up or the dream changes into other scary thingies.
the nightmares would be okay for the most part. although once it was really horrific in the past few days. i can hardly remember the specific details. there were many portions to this nightmare. one of the most mild segments would be me being on a univeristy field. on the far left there would be several people. dark purple in color. far in the distance i have to go join a crowd due to some event which is about to take place. for some reason the horizon is becoming dark. the people on the far left begin to scream at me. i try to reach the other crowd as soon as possible. the people on the left begin to chase after me. it's all dark and lonely. a scary world where my fiance is missing. dirty people following me now. all 1000 of them. i manage to reach the other crowd. then it changes again.
i wish i would feel as i have 2 days ago. my depression was getting so much better. it was so amazing. i was so sure i was going to be cured. then it got worse yesterday evening. i kept crying loudly for 30 minutes in bed. today it has been slightly better. how the HELL can this happen. I am so tired of it. i miss feeling the way i have 2 days ago. i hope it's not just an effect of me coming off an SSRI. I hope I improve significantly in the next week. I am becoming so sick of not being able to enjoy things enough. to not be able to feel much for fiance is horrific enough. but it takes away everything.
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