Posted by Katt on July 26, 2001, at 14:12:28
I am female, 25 yo, under psychiatric care for several years. My current medications are Ativan during the day and Xanax and Sonata at bedtime for several diagnoses including BPD, depression, anxiety, and anorexia.
Although I often have dissociative symptoms, I have recently had two instances of something more. I have on two occasions, seen what I thought were bugs on the wall and on my shower curtain. They seem to shimmer or sparkle or flash in many colors before my eyes and during the time, I believe that they are real. Then they suddenly disappear. Blinking does not make them go away.
The episode occurs over a period of 20 seconds or so but leaves me shaken and in tears. I am not necessarily phobic, but I hate any sort of insect, arachnoid, etc. The thought of dozens or hundreds of bugs before my eyes is terrifying. While I am not in that place, I know that what happened was not real.
I am terrified. What is going on? I am not using illicit drugs, and I never have. Am I hallucinating or is this simply dissociation or an occurence of stress? Is this an indication of psychosis? Please, someone, explain what is happening to me.
Katt
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