Posted by Simcha on July 25, 2001, at 15:30:33
In reply to Re: Obsessive Musical Tunes » MB, posted by Mitch on July 25, 2001, at 14:54:40
OMG! I've had this too!!! Maybe I have more compulsive behaviors than I thought. Thank God I'm starting an SSRI maybe I'll find out what it is like to be normal.
I had no idea that I was depressed most of my life until I started my first AD, Effexor, and all of the sudden I woke up one morning and I wanted to be alive.
I thought that everyone woke up wanting to sleep more and wanting to be dead!@!! I now understand that this is not so.
I always thought everyone imitated the mannerisms of people they liked. Also I thought that everyone had music running through their heads that they could not get rid of..... This has been lessened since therapy..... Gee, I guess "normies" don't have these obsessive/compulsive characteristics, huh? Well I'm amazed again. It'll be amazing recovering from all of this so that I can see what I can do unencombered by these obsessions and my depression. Hmmm...
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> > I get this too. SSRIs definitely make it worse. So do stimulants. I don't think it is OCD at all, either. Personally, I think it is related to tic disorder. Whenever it happens, I also have facial and diaphragmatic tics that go along with it. For me, the music isn't an obsession. It's like a tic, only instead of moving a muscle over and over, I say a word or "listen" to a tune in my head over and over. It's not a hallucination, either...it's definitely self generated. Is this what it's like for you guys? I don't know if we're talking about the same thing. I used to have echolalia as a kid, and it feels identical, only the sound isn't comming out of my mouth, it's happening in my head.
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> Yes, in my case it does sound very much like that. I don't get the facial corollary, however I DID used to (and still do at times) have echolalia when I was a teenager , also about the time the "scale illusions" started-which is very suspicious for temporal lobe epilepsy. We may not be talking about exactly the "same" thing, but I believe it is coming from the same part of the brain. Oh another thing I found out from a little researching-people with TLE may sometimes have "echopraxia" which is imitation of another person's behaviour (sometimes unconsciously), I also have done that. It is like instead of repeating the last word of someone's else's sentence, you start talking like them (mannerisms and accents, etc.) or posturing like them-I have done that too....
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> I will look through any followups when I get back on Sunday,
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> Mitch
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