Posted by MM on July 21, 2001, at 0:18:22
I feel like a failure, especially when it comes to fighting for myself. I know I need to go to a psychiatrist, be open, discuss my meds etc. I have anxiety issues, and I haven't been going to my pdoc like I should. I've met with him 2 times, and he's not mean or anything. He's probably a really smart, nice person, but I feel ashamed. He diagnosed BPII, and prescribed seroquel for sleep (25mgs at bedtime) and lithium. I never got the lithium because it required going to a doctors office for tests. I haven't done it. Since then I decided that I wanted to try Neurontin before lithium, and he said that was fine, but I have to see him for 30mins (10 by myself, 20 w/ me and my parent). He's trying, I know that. Why can't/don't I? I guess it's social phobia or w/e that makes me think that everyone's judging me harshly, or fear that I'm going to make some horribly embarassing, innapropriate mistakes (which I have and do), but it's still real to me, and I feel like he would be reprimanding, or really questioning why I'm not doing what I should. I don't know why, and can't really answer. I'm pretty much agoraphobic. Should I get some other kind of psychiatric help (like tele-psychiatry?). Has anyone heard of special treatment for people like me (prescribing over the phone)? I know this is a med forum, and I'm sorry to be personal, but it seems like there's some people here who have been around the block with psychiatrists etc. and you seem to know your stuff. ANY questions, thoughts, advice welcome. Thanks.
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