Posted by Mr. Scott on March 23, 2001, at 13:03:14
In reply to Re: I totally relate..., posted by Snuffy on March 23, 2001, at 10:00:38
> > I was on prozac for over seven years. The doses kept increasing until it reached 100mg. I felt numb to everything. My pdoc took me off prozac and replaced it with celexa + wellbutrin. I experienced all of your symptoms and added sever paranoia and anxiety. I'm back on Prozac + Wellbutrin + Seroquil + others. I'm still living with my depression but it has been tolerable. I am so scared to go off Prozac that I don't plan on doing it again. I wish you all of the luck in the world.
I have recently tried to come off of Zoloft and switch to a different class of antidepressants (Selegiline). Now I'm back on the Zoloft, because the Selegiline was even worse for me. I wonder sometimes what would have happened if I had just never taken anything and tried to work through the issues or even just get used to being depressed and try to find creative ways to deal with it even at the expense of productivity & pleasure for a while early on. Now I know, that these AD's probably do cause permanent Brain Damage or that at least it takes A LONG TIME off of all meds to get to a point where one can really know if they are capable of living without them. So much has been made about the benzodiazepines like Valium and Xanax, but as an experienced user of all of these drugs anti-anxiety and Antidepressant alike I'm quite sure there is not really any difference in safety at all. I seemed to be able to deal with life on my own until I was 16 (now 26). I wish I had been more patient instead of rushing to the quick drug fix. Now I think it is unlikely I will ever go without psychiatric drugs again. And yes the depression or withdrawal is eased by taking the drugs, but the side effects often make me wonder.
I would really love to take a year off of life and get off all the meds and really see if I could handle it. But this is impossible, I have taken on a great deal of responsiblities the least of which is a successful. So every day I just patch myself together and try to pretend it's all okay. I don't have passion for anything anymore but the Zoloft numbs me up so I don't even care. It cause me muscle pain which I relieve partially with another drug. My greatest pleasure is lying in front of the TV, while I used to be quite the athlete and full of spunk. I don't know what to do any more than anyone else does, but I know it is time for a change.
Scott
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