Posted by Shooty on March 11, 2001, at 22:57:05
In reply to Re: Pray and meditation not medication, posted by blackjack on March 11, 2001, at 18:08:27
> As far as the sunshine message goes, I always say "it's impossible to find your will to power when you can't even find your will to shower..."
This is brilliant. I feel guilty about taking medication, I always thought they were a copout, I have friends who tell me how bad it is that we are all self-medicating into some kind of evil "happy" trance and I am also scared about being on what is, subtly, a powerful drug (Celexa) for what may be years (!).
BUUUUUUUT: Having fruitlessly fought self-destructive compulsive behavior for twenty years through therapy, exercise and pathetic attempts to wield "willpower," it was pointed out to me that the risks of medication may be outweighed by the risks of NOT-medicating. WHo knows. What I do know is that it seems to be helping so far (3 months) and the side effects like drowsiness in the afternoon if I sit still too long, delayed ejaculation, occasional word mixups -- saying pajamas instead of overalls, etc. -- are outweighed by the benefits: less shy, less anxious, less compulsive, more open, less submissive, more joyous...
I don't like being a guinea pig, but I also don't like beating up on myself throughout this one, too-short life.
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