Posted by Racer on January 22, 2001, at 14:09:49
OK, I'm so depressed, and see no hope ahead of me. Death seems the kindest option, since I can't see any hope for anything better coming along. I've been suicidal before, but this is much calmer, and therefore more frightening to me.
I just lost my job, after a terrible experience working for the company for mere weeks. My confidence is totally blown, and I can't imagine anyone ever hiring me to do anything again. My home life is pretty unhappy, due to circumstances beyond my control. (My SO is about to lose his visa, so it's either marry in haste -- and in Reno -- or he's deported. We'd marry sooner or later anyway, but he's unhappy not to be able to decide for himself when he's ready.) My horse had to be put down. I'm fatter than I've ever been. Etc. Etc.
So, what else? I'm sweaty all the time, my mouth is always dry, and I can't sleep. I cry alot, I go from OK to totally desponant in under ten seconds, and I just can't seem to get a grip on myself.
Is this acceptable situational distress from being in a really rotten situation? (BTW, if my SO is deported, I'm unable to support myself in the area we moved to together.) Is this normal grief over so many losses in a short time? Should Effexor be able to help me through this by offering a lifeline? Or is the Effexor simply not working anymore?
Oh, did I mention the part about not having insurance?
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