Posted by shellie on September 19, 2000, at 11:29:14
In reply to Re: Ampisulpride vs. American Neuroleptics -- HELP, posted by JohnL on September 19, 2000, at 3:58:39
> What is the character of your depression? For example, is it mixed anxiety+depression? Or is it anhedonic, apathetic, no interest in anything kind of depression? How would you describe your depression? Suicidal thoughts? Crying spells? I'm just trying to understand what kind of depression are you dealing with?
> John>
John, thanks for your interest and your information. And I have tried sam-e (under the phone supervision of Dr. Brown , who wrote THE book on sam-e--Stop Depression Now.) Unfortuntely even up to 1600mg, it didn't work for me.Well, here's more about my depression than you will probably want to know!
I am dealing with what feels to be mainly an endrogeous depression that sits in my chest, varies from actually horrible pain, to more of a withdrawal. While nardil was working, depressions only lasted a day or so at a time,and didn't suppress enjoyment, although I tired easily. I do have suicidal thoughts because I don't know if something besides the nardil will work. I don't have social anxiety and I am able to totally lose the depression when I'm working with someone. (I'm a portrait photographer), but not during the other aspects of my business. I have a background of abuse and I think the depression got created in my body at a very early age. Most of my childhood is blocked out. I suppose I have the whole syndrome of PTSD, although anxiety usually translates right away into dissociation for me. I have had more episodes of my life and emotions feeling out of control since January. I don't cry very much unless I am premenstral. When the nardil was working, I loved going to movies, shopping, working in my garden, doing out to dinner, etc. Now I really do feel like I don't care much what I do, as long as I get my work done--I don't want to screw up my business. I resent that I have to work when I'm so depressed and yet I think I would totally slip away if I didn't have a business and responsibility. I am frustrated because I thought I was done with all this shit and was working on creating more and more in my life before the nardil pooped out. THE END (Sorry it's so long).
John, I assume you're still doing really well. I got a little lost though; are you now taking amisulpride, adrafinil and sam-e?
Shellie
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