Posted by JohnL on August 16, 2000, at 5:38:58
In reply to This #@*$@ sucks!, posted by toddfromphoenix on August 16, 2000, at 2:50:08
My my, things are pretty bad. You know, on one hand your post is full of skepticism, anger, failed faith, and frustration. On the other, I know exactly where you're coming from because I've been there. I have indeed felt EXACTLY the way your post suggests. All of it. Everything. Exactly. All I can say is it was a nightmare. Key word...'WAS'. I know it's impossible to fathom right now, but these hard times will resolve.
My gut instinct was to critisize your almost abrasive anger at everything. But I can't do that, because like I said, I've been there. I know exactly where you're coming from. Instead I'm feeling very concerned for you, and wish I could help.
You know what I did when I was realized I had no respect for my pdoc? I pulled out the yellow pages and got a new one. Though I did some research on them with phone calls, inquiries, and stuff, I have to admit flipping a coin might have been just as good. Considering how you feel about your pdoc, I would suggest getting a new one. Any one.
As to the Serzone, the early reactions you've had are not promising. I've had my fair share of experience with Serzone. Though some people do get through the early side effects that you mention, and end up feeling wonderful, in most cases Serzone will continue to be disappointing if it starts out that way. To me your early reactions to Serzone simply and logically indicate that it is one of two things: 1)Not an agreeable molecule to your body, 2)Not working on the chemistry that needs working on.
Flash forward a moment...I am currently doing very well. The meds I'm taking are in miniscule doses. In my understanding of things, the closer a med is to working on the correct chemistry, the lower the dose needed and the fewer side effects. The farther away a med is from the real problem, the larger the dose needed, and more side effects, and it will take a lot longer to work through a trickle down chain reaction (if it ever works at all). Currently...7.5mg Remeron (half the minimum dose), 300mg Adrafinil (25% of max), and 200mg SAMe (15% of max), and 25mg Amisulpride (barely even registers on the scale). Whatever these things are doing, they are doing it right. They are targeting the problems head on. No chain reaction trickle down waiting kind of stuff. And no side effects.
But how did I get to this point? Ironically, it started when I felt exactly like you do right now. It was that frustration that made me take things into my own hands. I didn't need a pdoc to make me feel more lousy. I could do that fine all by myself! For free! My frustration led me to natural alternatives (SJW, ginkgo, ginsengs, SAMe, etc) and overseas (Adrafinil, Amisulpride, Moclobemide, Reboxetine).
I'm not suggesting you take the same path. I am suggesting that the status quo in your treatment right now is failing. Something has to change. The pdoc is a good place to start. Serzone doesn't sound right either. Doing some online research and taking control could be a good thing. Get out of the passenger seat and take over the wheel.
For ideas other than my own, check out Dr Bob's 'Tips' section. Also, a definite eye opener, go to www.drjensen.com. If you don't like pdocs, you'll love this one! He's everything most pdocs aren't.
John
poster:JohnL
thread:42903
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20000811/msgs/43048.html