Posted by Abby on July 2, 2000, at 8:22:08
In reply to Re: Kerry B's country--a thought. , posted by kerry B on July 2, 2000, at 3:46:09
> Hi Abby,
> You've probably gone away by now but you are right, my country is Australia. I don't know if we do things differently over here or not, but I suppose most places are the same.
> I lost it big time last night.
> I don't know what happened, I was going ok, couldn't stop working all day again.
> Later in the night around 11pm I became disorientated, yelling and screaming at my husband who at that moment was ringing the health team. I was hiding behind the lounge with my face covered enjoying the darkness I felt and wouldn't let anyone see my face.
> The health team told him to call the police to come and take me but he didn't, he took me to the local hospital where they couldn't help me.
> People were staring at me and whispering about me and giving me filthy looks but the doctors thought I was strange.
> That's about all I remember. There are probably things I have missed out but I feel so weird, so strange and nobody will listen. I need their help but they just won't do anything!!!!!
> I feel desperate. I thought of suicide once again.
> I went to work today, somehow, but I wasn't there.
> Nothing once again went right, I just wanted to come home and curl up and be left alone.
> Tonight I am with the kids and they are really irritating me. It's not their fault. they are just being themselves but it's me.
> I am concerned how I am going to manage.
> Tomorrow the health team are supposed to be ringing me about phsycho therapy, but I don't see what that will do if I don't get treated by a doctor for my mental health.
> It is so hopeless and I feel hopeless. If it wasn't.......my daughter just spilled her milk everywhere!!!!! I'm finding it sooooo hard to stay in control. I shake with rage and anger and mouth off something terrible. They know I'm not well........
> Well, if it wasn't for this place I would go over the edge I think......Thanks everyone...........Kerry,
I saw your message to Rick E. I just checked in, but this is my last message. I doubt very much that people were looking at you as much as you think. "Filthy looks" sounds a teeny bit paranoid to me. That's not a judgement call. Everybody's been a bit paranoid at times
The differences are with how health care is paid for. In the U.S. people without private insurance have a very difficult time, and even those, who do, often have managed care problems. UK---the sclerotic National Health,Canada--government insurance. Different places will pay for different things.
Call the health team on Monday. Explain to them that it is an emergency and that your local hospital has been unable to help. Good luck. ---Abby
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