Posted by kathy on May 29, 2000, at 1:40:17
Thank you Andrew for caring. you see it doesn't matter if you're hurt by a female or a male it is still just as painfull but men get over things faster than women. Men quickly try to find another mate or someting else to take their mind off of it. You see just before the divorce, I was 4 months pregnant and everyone was so happy .In matter of two days he decided he doen't want the baby and said that if I don't have an abortion he is going to divorce me. With many hours of crying and begging and him saying that it's either him or me being a single parent I believed him ofcourse, why wouldn't I, and finally gave in to his demand. He didn't even care that I had heard the baby's heart beat the day before and that I was totally attached to that being and I was ready to even know what the sex was very soon. In the hospital I just cried the whole time and as the anesthesia was being administered I kept crying and saying to the guy that Iam is so sad and God to punish me for this. From that day my life just changed. I just feel like he betrayed me totally and there is nothing I can do because I don't even know when I can get pregnant again and it is just way too much for me to handle that he can leave knowing that I was in so I much pain. He says that I was relieved from that abortion because I had such bad morning and all day sickness. I blame myself for the baby and I keep thinking that maybe I should have become a sinle parent because I love children and that child would have given me a reason to always be happy.This whole issue has just hit me really hard in the past week and I cry all day, evry moment that Iam awake. I feel nothing at timejust nothing and that is when I want to give up.....
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