Posted by Cynthia M on May 23, 2000, at 10:07:18
In reply to Re: Cutting=bloodletting?, posted by medlib on May 22, 2000, at 22:10:11
Perhaps there is something to the bloodletting.......it just seems better when there is more blood.... I haven't cut since Saturday and I am restless.. My arm is beginning to heal and it is disturbing me. Noa I think your Idea is a good one, that i have found a valuable resource and I am getting things more under control ... Although Saturday I cut because of being tired and an inability to handle the "normal" mom stuff ( although how normal can it be with 9 kids???!!!) anyway bob, I am sure that the issue of control is huge here, the sense of control that I can get from cutting is amazingly intense... medlib, your associations are really very insightful and I appreciate your seeing that the idea of forgiveness for being "less than perfect" is an important issue for me. I have always been a perfectionist and I am finding it harder and harder to "comply" with my own expectations....I have found that I need to take on another project and focus as much as I can there and not on the other areas of control that I really have no control over.. No w I try dieting........... I can control how much I eat and how much I exercise etc... at least if I am substituting behaviors I will be getting a positive response from the "outside' psychiatric community instead of the threat of being locked up. Thanks for the continued support.. today I am cleaning... It is getting hot here and wearing long sleeves is getting old.....Thanks again..... Cyndy
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