Posted by Brenda on March 1, 2000, at 20:27:45
In reply to Re: to Phil re Noa, posted by Noa on March 1, 2000, at 19:49:23
> Hi, I am here.
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> BTW, I'm a she. Don't worry, lots of people seem to make that mistake, my name being similar to "Noah".
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> Thanks for the concern. I am low, it's true, but not in danger. I'm pissed at myself for staying home from work today, and of course there are a million things to do that I haven't, home- and work-wise.
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> I slept a lot today, and seem to have needed it. I only hope I can sleep tonight after all my daytime sleep.
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> As for the meds, I guess I'll give it a few more days, maybe even another week, to see if there is any improvement. I think the doc said I can increase the thyroid again to .05 (ie, two pills from one and a half). I'll call him tomorrow and ask.
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> The multitasking thing is still part of the issue. I get so overwhelmed because I can't organize myself enough to isolate one task at a time. Not that I was ever great at it, but the way I am now is not my "normal" functioning, in quotes because how long does it have to be before you lose the right to claim your previously normal level of functioning as your normal level of functioning. Did that make sense?
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> SOmetimes I see people who are slightly manic or just super energetic and happy, and I wish I could syphon off some of their brain chemicals to inject in mine. They could use a bit less, some of them, and I certainly need more. Like my friend who has so much energy he calls at 10 pm on a weekday to ask if I want to do something tonight. Now clearly, this man has chemicals to spare.Noa - well for God's sake - I'm getting the gender thing straightened out, at least. 10 p.m. on a "school night." Yeah, I want some of that too. Back to the Topamax. Another bonus w/that med is weight loss. It's the only anti-seizure med with that great side effect. It did help level off my depression.
Oh and a "nibnose" is also a nib-butt, probably better known as a busybody. My husband says I'm a nib-butt. Won't take me to harley motorcycle shows, cause he says I stare too much. That also could be a nibnose. Please be well. Boy - I'm sure glad I know everybody's gender now.
As for our former level of functioning - I really perceive it as our former way of feeling as opposed to functioning. All that multitasking b.s. was made up by some corporate wheenie with a Type A personality. And it caught on so the rest of us who don't organize at that level feel like poop.(I used to be a corporate wheenie, so I know from whence I speak.) When I'm depressed, a good day of multitasking is getting one thing done. Getting up could be that one thing.
Please don't beat yourself up because you took the day off and didn't "accomplish" a zillion things. There's no point to it - and all it does is make you feel worse. Okay - here comes the nibnose stuff. Try a gratitude list at the end of the day. Start with just one thing on it. That's a big accomplishment. "I'm grateful because/for ..." That one thing on your list will make up for all the "multitasking" not done. That's all my nibnosing in your business for one day!
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