Posted by Cindy W on February 3, 2000, at 20:54:29
In reply to Re: Lair Update, posted by Noa on February 3, 2000, at 13:24:41
> >Did your space get that way just from fatigue/depression, or might you have a little OCD?--Cindy W
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> Definitely from depression and fatigue. I don't know if there is an OCD-ish quality to it, but certainly not in the sense described by someone above, whose mother had a need to hoard all kinds of things.
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> I do get anxious about throwing some things away, feeling like I MIGHT need it someday, even though it hasn't been needed at all yet. But I can let go a lot easier than many people.
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> I think there is also the unattainable perfectionist ideals thing that I talked about above--why bother cleaning/trying to maintain neatness, when I can't even get it clean enough anyway.
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> But deep down, I think it is a total giving up, feeling like "why bother" at all. It is akin to not taking very good care of myself while I am depressed.
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> There is a touch of hoarder, though. I just remembered--I have things like a box full of empty cardboard 1" ring binders that I used during graduate school. I used to think I should keep everything, because if I needed it, then I wouldn't have to buy it again. But at this point, I am ready to give all that stuff away. In fact, recently I gave away a lot of that kind of thing--stuff I never use, but kept because I "might" need it someday--gave it to the fire department who was collecting for a family burned out of house and home.Noa, I'm glad you can give things away. That's very hard for me, since I have to save everything in case it's needed some day. I understand the feeling of why bother, I can't get it clean anyway, too. Glad you were able to get things in shape and get the plumbing fixed!--Cindy W
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