Posted by Tom W on February 3, 2000, at 16:04:29
In reply to balancing on the edge, posted by sane vs sanity on February 1, 2000, at 21:15:51
> Do you ever feel you are on the brink of madness? Somedays it scares the hell out of me when my mind starts getting ahead of me. I think about dying all the time, not suicide,but wondering when it will happen and how. This is a constant for me. Is this part of being bi-polar? I was diagnosed a year ago and I am 37. Would love to find a drug that could make me numb and not think about the dying. My husband thinks I could just get over this because he doesn't fully believe in any mental illness especially this. My kids think I am psycho. I try to tell them about my illness. My mother passed away a little over a year ago and it has been very hard for me, Sometimes xanax helps me to relax, but i know I can't take it all the time, wish I could. Hoping someone will respond. thanks
Dear SVS,
I'm sorry to hear of your loss. I haven't crossed
that bridge yet and don't want to. My mom is my
closest friend on earth. I want to ask you about
your diagnosis of bipolar. I too think of death all
the time. It haunts me like a black cloud. I take
an AD and I'm screwed up on that as they cut my doseage
from 75mg to 25mg a day; by mistake I think. I'm
climbing the walls now. What did they base the
diagnosis of bipolar disorder on. I'm wondering if
I'm that too. I'm not suicidal but can't get death
off my mind. I was involved in a car accident 2 years
ago that was my fault and someone was killed. This has
taken a lot out of my life. Also have other toughies
to deal with such as a sour marital situation. What did they
put you on for bipolar. I don't want to be a pest
but I'm curious about this. Thanks and I hope it
gets better for YOU. tom w
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