Posted by nick on February 2, 2000, at 21:07:25
I was wondering if you might have some, advice, perhaps for me.
I have been seeing psychiatrists on and off for over ten years.
I am 32 y/o and I have tried every antidepressent on the market.
The only med that seems to work for me is klonipin at
around 5 to 6 mgs a day all in the morning(or mostly).
I read your thoughts on this med, and I do agree with you
100 percent and there are other effects on ones personality
that you did not mention (effects in my case anyway)
but there seems to be no other way to relize life
as I choose it. As far as I know, I'll only get one
chance on this planet, and life is short. In other words
there is no other med that I have taken that allows me to
be "me". Before I began taking klonipin I felt as though
I was powerless in the world to exert my will and social
potential. I was a very lonly and weak (emotionally).
And I get no sympathy for my illness for although I
am of average height 5'11" I am addicted to exercise,
and I am above averge looking but I have been told that
there is an intimidating look about me. So I would
imagine that I exude masculine power. however, and I
know this is a reoinforcing statement, but the opposite
is more true. still though, people seem to be competetive
with me rather than sympathetic. That is not to say that
I feel I deserve eveyones pity, but rather understanding
I am not excluding family and most Doctors I have had to endure.
I am a veteran so I am seen by VA Dr's. "government
health care". Any way, I have tryed everything from
prozac, paxil, remron, effexor all the new anti-depress-
ents to lithieum, depakote and many others of which none
worked, or did anything other than make me very sleepy.
Where do I go from here. maybe I am seaching for answers
in the wrong place
poster:nick
thread:20409
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