Posted by george o on January 24, 2000, at 1:55:44
It was bad enoughj being depressed when i was 30, but over years i've become immune to the few meds that ever worked and now at the age of 45 i'm really starting to feel the effects of aging a lot more than most people i know. in the last year i've gained 30lbs, and although my blood pressure has hit a dangerous leval i can't tolerate most blood pressure meds because they make me even more weak that i already am. my father who was never depressed a day in his life is losing strenght, its going to be a lot worse for me. i'm ashamed of being so dependant and passive, i think my life is soon to be over, who says a person has to live to be 70 or more? i hope that if i have a stroke it kills me instead of just crippling me. i see a new doc tomorrow but if he won't try mirapex thats it, nothing more can be done and i'll simply get as wasted as i can on alcohol and marijuana until it ends. i am so damn tired.