Posted by Adam on November 9, 1999, at 12:55:59
In reply to tring to die!!!!!, posted by kelly on November 8, 1999, at 23:39:37
Kelly,
I have never attempted suicide, but came very close at the beginning of this year.
I was beyond unhappy. I felt like I was losing my mind, the feelings of despair and
anxiety were so intense. I would wake up at night shaking, with tears streaming out of
my eyes and absolutely beg the ground beneath me to swallow me and erase me. Death did
seem very much like "a consummation, devoutly to be wished," and the only thing that
kept me here was the promise the desire to commit suicide was a manifestation of an
illness and that this illness is treatable.I cannot say this promise will be kept to everyone. But until you have exhausted all
possible avenues, you must try to "take up arms against a sea of troubles, and by so
opposing end them" because you have only one life, and thus it is your most precious
posession, miserable or sublime. It can and shall be both, and every condition in
between, and as truly as death is an end to suffering, it is an end to all living
experience and to all any person can truly know or hope for.I wish I could give you some assurrance of living joy or at the very least respite this
side of the grave, but I can assure you you will never experience such things if you
deny yourself the possibility.It is possible to be happier. I and many here are living proof. Keep fighting. You
are stronger than you know. It can get better.> I been down so long Over 15yrs. I just can't take it anymore. Life just keeps giving me more problems to deal with, this is it my last problem to deal with.
poster:Adam
thread:14852
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