Posted by Annie on October 17, 1999, at 13:23:26
In reply to Don't get the wrong idea. 1st time violent ever!, posted by Diane on October 17, 1999, at 11:56:22
Diane,
I can relate to wanting to choke my mother sometimes, you just took it a step further. I'm not minimizing the situation. I know you must have been terrified by your reaction. Prozac was the first AD I tried years ago and it made me too wired also. Remeron can be a sedating AD -- too sedating at lower doses. I'm currently on Neurontin and find that it has a very mellowing effect. Paxil also had a mellowing effect but if weight gain bothers you, give it a pass. It causes much more weight gain than the other SSRIs.
I agree with the others that a Psychiatrist is a much better choice than a GP. You don't have to see him/her for talk therapy. Make it clear that you just want them to manage your medications. Most GPs, in my experience, are reluctant to go beyond mono-therapy with the SSRIs. Relief for many of us can only be achieved with other classes of drugs or with drug augmentation. GPs normally do not have the training to get into the subtleties of which type of depression responds best to which drug therapy. I do not think "one size fits all" is the way to go for you. Thank you very much for the Grafton quote. It *does* say it all about a few passive-agressive people I know. I wish you luck and peace.Annie
> I am not violent "by nature". Don't get the wrong idea here!
>
> I have allot of hate & anger, yes,(particularly over events of the last 11yrs) which expressing
> ONLY MAKES WORSE (doesn't solve) so I do NOT. I don't want to talk to anybody about it...it doesn't help. I
> tried talking to the people involved...hasn't worked yet so I give up on talk.
>
> I am not not a violent person and have never hit any one before (I'm strictly defense)
> until I took this Prozac. Suddenly I was rehashing those events in my mind with a new
> intensity. Then I caught my mom going thru my boxes again (my husband died after a
> 6 yr fight for his life and I'm back "home at 45yrs old ), which I've gotten use to now and
> ignore BUT this time I lit into her and grabbed her by throat when she would back off.
> I felt minimal restraint. Scared the heck outta me a little while later. Scares me now to
> contemplate trying another anti-depressant! That's why I am looking for direction on my
> own. If I do go to a shrink I don't want to go in cold.
>
> What ADs do NOT cause one to be *wired*? I can not stand that feeling. Speeds makes me depressed.
> Zoloft gave me headaches.
> Xanax made me dopy-like, useless. Ended 10day hospital stay/Withdrawl siezures. Word-finding difficulties ever after.
> Mellaril, I can't remember.17yrs ago
> Klonopin, nothing to dopy to useless.
> Vallium, nothing.
> Tryptophan gives me nightmares
> Caffine can make me very angry or sometimes tired.
>
> "There's a certain class of people who will do you in
> and then remain completely mystified by the depth
> of your pain."*
>
> *found that in a Sue Grafton book. It says it all.
>
poster:Annie
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