Posted by MelindaJ on June 10, 1999, at 13:36:05
In reply to tired of explaining myself, posted by Melody on June 10, 1999, at 9:15:30
> I went off my meds over a month ago and my husband knew I was pretty much back at the start (meaning when I was first diagnosed with depression and not on any meds yet). He knows that I have a diff. time coping with alot and am moody and have no sex drive and I just need a little support and understanding. He also told me over a week ago that he wouldn't 'bug' me for intimacy because I'm just not ready. He went away from this past Sunday eve. until yesterday. Then it seems like this is the only thing on his mind! I am so tired of explaining that I am just not there. He told me he doesn't understand. Of course not, he isn't depressed. But couldn't he at least try? He said he will but I don't know how long this will last, again. UGH! I guess I just needed to vent to someone who might actually understand where I am comming from. I am having a hard enough time not jumping off a bride, never mind sex. I am very tired of going through this. I guess because it has been a year since my family found out about my depression that they forgot or something. I was talking to my mother a few nights ago and she told me that I better put 'mind over matter' because "where would you be if you wound up in the hospital and LOST your husband and your children". I guess she figures that my husband will take the kids and leave me if that was to happen? Or that this is what I would deserve? I don't know. I am tired of explaining to everyone in my so called life that I don't choose to be like this and I don't want to be depressed and if was a case of putting mind over matter then I wouldn't be like this. GRR. Thanks for letting me vent. This is a good place to come. Also, I am going on Wellebutrin. Hopefully I won't be as tired as I was on the Effexor. Do you just ignore people (when they say things like my mother did) or tell them off or what? Sometimes only a couple of choice words come to my mind.
I agree with Phil's comments - most people don't see depression as a real illness. I also discovered when I first began treatment that, the reason my mother was unsupportive was that she felt guilty. She was sure that all therapists tell patients that their mothers are to blame for everything. Sure, I have issues with my mom(and others)but I look upon this as a medical problem. Our challenge is to help others see it as such. I think you also have to bear in mind that for most of us this is a "chronic" illness. This is different from a broken leg which eventually heals and everything gets back to normal. It's hard having a family member with any sort of chronic condition. I know it's difficult dealing with this when you're going through such a rough spot - don't feel like writing it all down, xeroxing it and handing it out to everyone who makes a stupid comment?
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