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Posted by WaterSapphire on August 16, 2008, at 4:07:29
I used to be Tanzanite, and before that I cannot remember who I was. I had missed being a part of this site and so much happened where we lived before...I didn't remember if I had been on babble since 2006. By the time that summer came I had been so sick and weak, and kept falling we lost our mobile home. My husband had to quit his job, and drive me all the way to my parents home where we lived for 1 1/2 years. Things got very bad there, and I was too afraid to leave my room because my younger brother had a bad temper and would yell at me and say awful things, but because he was the baby and still is he can do no wrong. My husband had to stay home with me to help take care of me at the time, and considering he owed child support and this had greatly changed our ability to take care of my stepdaughter (in another state), it made things even harder. My parents got angry because my husband was not able to work with my anxiety and issues of fear of my brother (things have since gotten a little better), and because other people in the extended family were making comments about us. They forced us out (with a little help) in such a short period of time we had to settle for an horrible apartment that had problems because we could not get one in our name because of all of our financial problems. By now, it is 2008. For over two years I had began having an increase of medical symptoms with tremors, falling, twitching, memory loss, weakness, pain, breathing difficulty, etc. This further made my suffering with OCD, anxiety, and depression worse. We were forced to move out of the apartment we lived in because of mold. It made the other problems so much worse, but my father then signed a lease for us and we are now in a better place. Before we had moved, I had been evaluated for MS, and other neuromuscular problems. I am now on much better terms at least with my family and have been able to put some of the things in the past behind me with them, even though there are still problems. My parents have done whatever they can now to help us. Our car is broken down, and we cannot afford to fix it. My husband has been unable to find a regular job in Michigan. He was doing a temp job, but they sent the guys home the other day..and supposedly they might only call him back. This state is so bad, but we are too poor to move. It just seems like even though things get a tiny bit better, we always get hit with more of a mess. I have started trying to see new physicians since we live in another county now and the ones where I lived before were horrible (well not the internist), but the hospital and a family doctor I had seen before hand. I am petrified of doctors now. I threw all my medicine out. After a mention from another lady about electrolyte issues on a different site, and nothing else was being done...I remembered in Colorado on a few different occasions I had been hypokalemic and had low magnesium.
Now I am taking these things like mad, and my serum levels are ok, but I am struggling. My moods seem completely tuned to how dehydrated or deficient I feel as it is accompanied by the weakness, twitching, palpitations, etc. I cannot get a doctor to properly evaluate me for a wasting disorder because I have high bp and the one specialist I saw completely brushed me off and blamed it on sodium intake because I get occasionally terrible salt cravings. My new internist is evaluating me for Cushings, tumors, etc. So, here I am sick and scared. My husband and I are still together and I love him...but we really don't have as much of a relationship as I would like to. We both are stressed and depressed and very fed up with being poor and unable to get ahead. To lose our mobile home in Colorado, not be able to even find work for hubby, not be able to get good medical care, etc...has just been too much...not to mention the back child support that he owes. I have so much on my plate...and maybe I should not be throwing it all out like this. But, for keeping my last thread and shred of sanity here I am. I had missed being part of this site. It always has had a special place in my heart. I can only pray and keep on going as best as I can. If anyone remembers me, let me know. My memory from then is not so good.
Wishing you all a good weekendChelle
Posted by nfc on August 16, 2008, at 5:07:31
In reply to My Re-entry, Was Tanzanite/ Possible***Trigger***, posted by WaterSapphire on August 16, 2008, at 4:07:29
hi Chelle,
sorry i can't help u in trying to remember who u were but I read your story and my heart goes out to you. gosh I wish for better things for you and wonder if there's any assistance you can get from the state or government or something for those in difficult situations like yours? like free healthcare for those w/ low incomes perhaps? its great that you both have each other and understandable that it's at the same time difficult because of how circumstances have presented themselves. but try and seek out help from the sources i mentioned. take care and wishing you both all the best,
nfc
Posted by Phillipa on August 16, 2008, at 12:41:49
In reply to Re: My Re-entry, Was Tanzanite/ Possible***Trigger*** » WaterSapphire, posted by nfc on August 16, 2008, at 5:07:31
I'm sorry don't remember you either and was here in 2006. What board did you post on the most do you remember? If not that's okay. Your doc did right in evaluating you for Cushings and I'm assuming Addison's Disease Also assuming thyroid. Keep Posting for support. Weekend are kind of empty here on babble. Yes heard Michigan was in horrible shape job wise. I'll be thinking of you. You might remember me Phillipa
Posted by WaterSapphire on August 16, 2008, at 13:29:28
In reply to Re: My Re-entry, Was Tanzanite/ Possible***Trigger***, posted by Phillipa on August 16, 2008, at 12:41:49
Hey guys. When I did a search for my nick name Chelle, I found some of my old posts under Tanzanite. HI Philippa, I do remember your name.
MY memory for everything else well is poor lol for that year. NFC nice to meet you. Thank you both for your post. It is ok if it is not so busy on the weekend. i don't mind. I will be posting on and off. Please take care both of you.Peace
Chelle
Posted by nfc on August 16, 2008, at 17:41:47
In reply to Re: My Re-entry, Was Tanzanite/ Possible***Trigger***, posted by WaterSapphire on August 16, 2008, at 13:29:28
Chelle,
you take care also and good to meet u as well.
nfc
Posted by Phillipa on August 16, 2008, at 20:43:24
In reply to Re: My Re-entry, Was Tanzanite/ Possible***Trigger*** » WaterSapphire, posted by nfc on August 16, 2008, at 17:41:47
Will have to google archieves to jog my feeble mind. Phillipa Great to see you back!!!!
Posted by Bobby on August 16, 2008, at 23:11:46
In reply to My Re-entry, Was Tanzanite/ Possible***Trigger***, posted by WaterSapphire on August 16, 2008, at 4:07:29
I remember you having hard times back in 2006. We had a couple of encounters on the writing board when you were Tanzanite and I was a delusional poet. Let's both look foward to the future with fervent hope.
Posted by llurpsienoodle on August 17, 2008, at 10:14:04
In reply to I remember you, posted by Bobby on August 16, 2008, at 23:11:46
I like your new name!
I was really sorry to hear of all of your troubles. It often helps to vent and share your struggles, and I hope you'll use this place to get support.
Try to find a little bit of joy each day, even the worst days have a tiny bit of beauty.
-Ll
Posted by WaterSapphire on August 18, 2008, at 20:11:58
In reply to My Re-entry, Was Tanzanite/ Possible***Trigger***, posted by WaterSapphire on August 16, 2008, at 4:07:29
Hey Bobby, Llurpsie, Phillipa and NFC
thank you all for posting again. I am a bit slow this past weekend and am trying to get back up and going but my body isn't cooperating too well.
Maybe I will check out the writing board once again and put up some poetry and read some too.I remember Jai Naryan I think and I used to post to Deneb I think.
My old brain needs recharging....
Posted by nfc on August 19, 2008, at 5:37:45
In reply to Re: My Re-entry, Was Tanzanite/ Possible***Trigger***, posted by WaterSapphire on August 18, 2008, at 20:11:58
hey WaterSapphire,
yeah post up some poetry. It'll be nice to read for all of us!
take care,
nfc
Posted by Partlycloudy on August 19, 2008, at 17:40:22
In reply to My Re-entry, Was Tanzanite/ Possible***Trigger***, posted by WaterSapphire on August 16, 2008, at 4:07:29
I used to post as ClearSkies, but have changed my name back to an earlier incarnation of PartlyCloudy.
I have wondered how you've been.
Welcome back,
pc
Posted by TexasChic on August 27, 2008, at 18:45:43
In reply to Re: My Re-entry, Was Tanzanite/ Possible***Trigger***, posted by WaterSapphire on August 18, 2008, at 20:11:58
When I'm really feeling bad, I usually can't handle reading all the other posts. So I pick one and try to give whatever support I can. Then when I am feeling good, I try to make up for it by reading and responding to as many as I can.
Well, this was my one and may I just say, HOLY CRAP! You've gone through ALOT! I'm really sorry I didn't read this before. Here you've been comforting me when you have so much going on!
I'm glad you and your husband got into your own place. I know from experience there's nothing worse than living in a toxic environment. Seriously, it can just really mess you up, and you don't realize it because its like that everyday.
I also know what its like to live with constant physical pain. I had a couple of conditions that kept me in pain for several years. I hope you can find some help and some good doctors soon.
And of course I can empathize with your hubby and the job situation. I wish we lived in Star Trek world were they no longer use money and people do whatever job they want just because it interests them. No worries about rent, food, clothes, health, etc. Of course they do have the Borg, but personally I think its a pretty good trade off (if you're not familiar with Star Trek, the Borg are the bad guys). Sorry my internal nerd is showing, but I've just always enjoyed that Star Trek world fantasy.
Anyway, I'll hang in there if you will. There's no telling what will happen tomorrow! Maybe one of us will win the lottery (even though I don't ever buy tickets).
This is kind of going off subject but, do you watch "My Name is Earl"? Its about a guy who wins the lottery and then discovers karma and decides he has to make good on all the bad things he's done. Its freaking hilarious. I just had to throw that in because I was talking about the lottery and that show was on TV last night.
-T
Posted by WaterSapphire on August 30, 2008, at 8:50:16
In reply to Re: My Re-entry, Was Tanzanite/ Possible***Trigger, posted by TexasChic on August 27, 2008, at 18:45:43
I am sorry I did not see this until this mornin just now.
I get bleary eyed and lose track sometimes. Thank you so much for your post too.
I LOVE Star Trek ...and I think it would be awesome if things were like that in today's world.At least the trade offs from technology really were a plus for the societies that existed in the different Star Trek series.
I haven't seen My name is Earl for a long while...cuz we need to get cable and owe the cable company lol. I love that show...
It is great.Our antenna even though it is digital does not work well where we live.
Hope you are doing well and have a good weekend :)
Peace
Chelle
Posted by TexasChic on August 30, 2008, at 23:41:31
In reply to TexasChic :), posted by WaterSapphire on August 30, 2008, at 8:50:16
> I am sorry I did not see this until this mornin just now.
> I get bleary eyed and lose track sometimes. Thank you so much for your post too.
> I LOVE Star Trek ...and I think it would be awesome if things were like that in today's world.
>
> At least the trade offs from technology really were a plus for the societies that existed in the different Star Trek series.
>
> I haven't seen My name is Earl for a long while...cuz we need to get cable and owe the cable company lol. I love that show...
> It is great.
>
> Our antenna even though it is digital does not work well where we live.
>
> Hope you are doing well and have a good weekend :)
> Peace
> ChelleThat's alright, a lot of people only look at the new posts on the bottom.
That's so cool that you like Star Trek. I've never met another girl who was into it. I added to the post way down there by manic.
I understand about the antenna thing. Until I moved to this apt 2 years ago I had never had cable before. Just rabbit ears. Back when Xfiles was my favorite show I used to get so mad because it came on the fuzziest channel!
-T
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