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Posted by Deneb on June 19, 2006, at 20:08:11
Attention! I need attention! Woohoo! Drama, drama, drama.
Reply to me. That's all I really want.
I know I'm not as supportive as others here. I know I start a lot of my own threads. Now I know that's not okay.
I'm not accepted. I get it. I'm scum.
Gimme, gimme, attention.
I know I have problems, personality problems.
I lack empathy. I know it. I acknowledge it.
I'm trying to change, but it doesn't matter, I'm not doing it fast or well enough.
angry Deneb*
Posted by Deneb on June 19, 2006, at 20:23:07
In reply to I'm pond scum, I get it., posted by Deneb on June 19, 2006, at 20:08:11
Posted by TexasChic on June 19, 2006, at 20:41:40
In reply to I'm pond scum, I get it., posted by Deneb on June 19, 2006, at 20:08:11
Hey girl, we all want attention, we all are involved in ourselves. It called being human. And you have always been extremely supportive and empathetic towards me. You're being entirely too hard on yourself. Lighten up girl!
I start alot of threads too. I also end alot of them.
-T
Posted by curtm on June 19, 2006, at 21:10:13
In reply to I'm pond scum, I get it., posted by Deneb on June 19, 2006, at 20:08:11
If you're pond scum, then I'm the scummy, scum byproduct of pond scum.
Posted by rainbutterfly on June 19, 2006, at 21:30:46
In reply to I'm pond scum, I get it., posted by Deneb on June 19, 2006, at 20:08:11
I've been there Deneb. It's a sucky place to be. Feeling like pond scum right at this minute in fact. ((((Deneb))))
Posted by sleepygirl on June 19, 2006, at 22:18:21
In reply to I'm pond scum, I get it., posted by Deneb on June 19, 2006, at 20:08:11
Try not to be so hard on yourself sweetheart, everybody needs attention. "Scum" is NOT a word that remotely applies to you.
Posted by Deneb on June 19, 2006, at 22:24:36
In reply to ((((((Deneb)))))))) » Deneb, posted by sleepygirl on June 19, 2006, at 22:18:21
I'm better now.
Deneb*
Posted by Phillipa on June 19, 2006, at 23:14:09
In reply to Sorry about the temporary insanity, posted by Deneb on June 19, 2006, at 22:24:36
Deneb you are a very caring person how is buttertart doing. Did you potty train him yet. Love Phillipa you likes Deneb a whole bunch!!!!
Posted by Deneb on June 20, 2006, at 5:22:00
In reply to Sorry about the temporary insanity, posted by Deneb on June 19, 2006, at 22:24:36
Thanks Phillipa
:-)
I'm better now. I just got a little angry.
(((((((((((Phillipa))))))))))))
Deneb*
Posted by Emily Elizabeth on June 20, 2006, at 9:12:54
In reply to Re: Sorry about the temporary insanity » Deneb, posted by Deneb on June 20, 2006, at 5:22:00
Observation: You recently wrote about stopping your meds. Now you are having periods of feeling out of control. I don't think it is a coincidence.
Please take care of yourself.
Best,
EE
Posted by 10derHeart on June 21, 2006, at 22:01:31
In reply to Re: Sorry about the temporary insanity, posted by Emily Elizabeth on June 20, 2006, at 9:12:54
Posted by gardenergirl on June 21, 2006, at 22:51:44
In reply to My same worry, too EE! Deneb.....? ((Deneb)) (nm) » Emily Elizabeth, posted by 10derHeart on June 21, 2006, at 22:01:31
Posted by Deneb on June 21, 2006, at 23:05:38
In reply to Re: Sorry about the temporary insanity, posted by Emily Elizabeth on June 20, 2006, at 9:12:54
Thanks for the concern. I really don't think it has anything to do with me messing around with my meds. It's probably the stress of thinking I have cancer.
Deneb*
Posted by 10derHeart on June 22, 2006, at 15:29:27
In reply to Re: Sorry about the temporary insanity, posted by Deneb on June 21, 2006, at 23:05:38
That may be so, but can you really be sure? And, imagine what might be the result if you are experiencing this high level of anxiety AND reducing or skipping meds at the same time? I believe from reading Babble, my own research and talking to p-docs in the past, that some folks' brains are super-sensitive to the slightest changes in meds and life events....perhaps you are one of those?
Food for thought, is all. You know we write like this 'cause we care a lot and don't want to see you suffering with any bad thoughts, if there are ways to stop them from coming.
Those test results are taking an awfully long time...when does the doctor's office say they can tell you? And....shame on them for having a system that takes so long!! Grrrr.....!
Posted by Deneb on June 22, 2006, at 16:35:43
In reply to Re: Sorry about the temporary insanity » Deneb, posted by 10derHeart on June 22, 2006, at 15:29:27
Thanks 10derHeart, for your thoughts.
Yes, I do think I'm highly sensitive to life events. I don't know about the meds part, I always considered myself not sensitive to meds.
I'm not doing so well. I let myself run out of meds and I'm also getting horrible bad thoughts again. Just walking down the street all I'm thinking about is how I want to shoot my f*cking brains out.
Posted by gardenergirl on June 22, 2006, at 21:51:29
In reply to Re: Sorry about the temporary insanity *trigger*, posted by Deneb on June 22, 2006, at 16:35:43
It does sound like a lot is going on right now. When can you refill your meds?
gg
Posted by Phillipa on June 22, 2006, at 21:53:26
In reply to Re: Sorry about the temporary insanity *trigger* » Deneb, posted by gardenergirl on June 22, 2006, at 21:51:29
Deneb you have to get your meds refilled. Love Phillipa
Posted by 10derHeart on June 22, 2006, at 23:16:22
In reply to Re: Sorry about the temporary insanity *trigger*, posted by Phillipa on June 22, 2006, at 21:53:26
Deneb,
Please call your pdoc. I'm sure she'd call in a refill. I don't think the running out and bad thoughts are a coincidence, do you?
I'm worried for you. You don't need to live this way. Please take care of yourself - we want you here with us.
Posted by Deneb on June 23, 2006, at 0:42:29
In reply to Re: Sorry about the temporary insanity *trigger*, posted by 10derHeart on June 22, 2006, at 23:16:22
I think sleeping too much yesterday and the day before made me depressed.
I slept a LOT. I slept until 5 p.m., went to bed at 1 a.m. and slept until 4 p.m. Feeling down, so I slept, probably made things worse. Woke up with headache, from sleeping too much. Guess I just wanted to avoid life.
Anyways, I'm okay for now.
Deneb*
Posted by Deneb on June 23, 2006, at 2:13:37
In reply to Re: Sorry, I'm okay, posted by Deneb on June 23, 2006, at 0:42:29
I should help people. Maybe I should do some volunteering.
I want to make a difference in this world before I die.
If it turns out that the doctors are right and I don't have cancer, I should make sure I live life to the fullest everyday. I should aim to help someone everyday.
Actually, I should start now. I need to get out there and make a difference.
I should also take care of myself better, get healthy in every way.
Life is short.
Deneb*
Posted by fayeroe on June 24, 2006, at 4:50:22
In reply to I want to make a difference in this world, posted by Deneb on June 23, 2006, at 2:13:37
deneb, the most important difference that you can make right now, in life, is to take better care of yourself. that, within itself, will change things for your significantly.
taking one's meds and keeping a regular schedule with sleep is very, very important for healing. your body/mind/emotional growth gets out of whack, in a serious way, when you mess around with your biological clock and meds.
it's bad enough to not have a regular sleep pattern, but adding to that by stopping and starting meds causes imbalances that are hard to fix. it's like letting pain get "ahead" of you. if we have bad pain and we put off taking a pain med, it's hard to catch up with the pain and stop it. think of it like this, you are going to have "pain"....so if you take your risperdal, on a regular schedule,and get into the routine of a regular sleep pattern, you're going to be staying ahead of the "pain" and your life will be much easier......
then you will truly feel like getting out there and changing the world...because YOUR world will have changed. xoxoxo pat
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