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Posted by NightStar72 on March 30, 2005, at 18:58:57
Hello,
Looking to chat, I am BPD / Bi-Polar and was recommended to come in here to this forum.
Just like to chat and get some feed back.. thanks
Posted by Dinah on March 30, 2005, at 19:18:30
In reply to Hello - New here, posted by NightStar72 on March 30, 2005, at 18:58:57
Come on in and put your feet up. Join in whatever threads seem interesting to you, or start one of your own.
Always happy to meet a new Babbler.
Posted by NightStar72 on March 30, 2005, at 19:35:13
In reply to Hello - New here, posted by NightStar72 on March 30, 2005, at 18:58:57
I have trouble socilizing, sometimes I just don't feel like I fit in, lack sense of humor, and feel akward.
I just recently found out I am BPD, and it has been depressing, cause I lost my marriage, and he come back, but we are still divorced and it saddens me very much. I am trying to learn to give space, but that leaves me sad and lonely.
Posted by Dinah on March 30, 2005, at 19:45:24
In reply to Re: Hello - New here, posted by NightStar72 on March 30, 2005, at 19:35:13
By BPD do you mean borderline personality disorder? (I hate that term, BTW). There are several people here with that diagnosis.
I feel that way myself, both about fitting in and about a sense of humor. Often on Babble I just enjoy the silly funny threads without really understanding them.
Do you have kids? I've got one munchkin. (BTW, one general rule is that no one has to answer any question they'd rather not answer. So if you would prefer not to tell, that's ok.)
There's a board here devoted to Relationships if you'd like to talk about your problems with your marriage.
And the Psychology board where we talk about Psychology and therapy.
And the medication board for talking about medications.
And the Parenting board for talking about raising kids.
There is such a plethora of boards here, that I'm not sure I even remember them all. But fortunately there's a list at the top of each page.
Posted by NightStar72 on March 30, 2005, at 19:57:49
In reply to Re: Hello - New here » NightStar72, posted by Dinah on March 30, 2005, at 19:45:24
My ex has 5 kids, I don't have any of my own... never interested in raising children, I stess real easily with the ones he has, 4 boys I have met and one girl I had not met.
I usually live in myself, I ramble a lot I guess to hear myself talk.
It has been a toubled year, last August I quit my job, was trying verious medications but cost was too high over $700 was taking Risperdal, Cymbolta, Ritilin, and Lexepro.. but none of them helped.
I got the divorce just a month later, and currently in foreclosure on my home.
Just this month I got approved for SSI, still waiting to hear back on disability.. and just got approved on housing assistance. Ex is here with me, but once this month I found I was borderline personality, I agreed to give him space. And I feel most times like he avoids me, never any time alone together.. the kids are here 24/7 finally got my settlement and invested in extra TV to get them out of the bed room all the time, but now he is out there with them, while I hide in here on computer.
I try to fit in, but I get ignored for most part, nothing interesting for me to talk about, so they just ignore me for the most part.
I just feel devistated, sad.. I thought the new medication Abilify and Zoloft was helping, been on them 3 weeks, but today I am sad again. Not crying as I usually would be, but still sad.
I am taking Abilify 10mg and Zoloft 100mg, just starting, up until a few days ago felt very foggy, tired, having trouble with racing thoughts, with my bi-polar. I have trouble remembering things, and easily distracted.
Thanks,
Posted by Spoc on March 31, 2005, at 3:00:21
In reply to Re: Hello - New here, posted by NightStar72 on March 30, 2005, at 19:57:49
Hi Nightstar! I think you will find a lot of help and comfort for all those kinds of issues here. As Dinah mentioned, you'll be able to get more in-depth about some of them (i.e. matters regarding the kids, medications, or BPD) on one of the many boards here that are devoted to the category they fall in. (This board, Social, is more general and also good for posting "lighthearted" stuff.)
Much reassurance available in these parts that you are not alone, and company. And no you can't be boring here (and plenty of people here are not up to laughing much either ;). Lots of folks around who are also kind of at a standstill in their lives to some extent, due to problems just like yours. That is a big part of what they are here to discuss, so don't worry, you don't need to have an exciting life to talk about!
All the best to you. :^)
Posted by PM80 on March 31, 2005, at 6:58:08
In reply to Re: Hello - New here » NightStar72, posted by Spoc on March 31, 2005, at 3:00:21
Hi! I'm pretty new here, too. I discovered this site on my own a few weeks ago, and so far, it has been a positive experience. I come into work early to visit this site, since I don't yet have a computer at home. Everyone has been supportive, and no one has been critical or negative in response to me. I guess the philosophy that a shared burden is lighter for all kinda comes into play. Feel free to express yourself here, even if you feel like you don't make sense. Welcome!
Posted by NightStar72 on March 31, 2005, at 8:02:43
In reply to Re: Hello - New here, posted by PM80 on March 31, 2005, at 6:58:08
Thanks much for the welcome, I will try to look for that other section - I am not light hearted at the moment, last night was having fits, going back to feeling as though rejected, I would like help from someone on how to catch and change that before I make my ex mad trying to reassure me.
Thanks, Much. Pammila
Posted by Susan47 on March 31, 2005, at 10:12:46
In reply to Hello - New here, posted by NightStar72 on March 30, 2005, at 18:58:57
You've had a really rough time Nightstar, I guess no one has to tell you that .. it's horrible to be alone and feel unloved .. but it sounds like you're still feeling that way even with your ex and his kids there.
Posted by sunny10 on March 31, 2005, at 11:26:21
In reply to Re: Hello - New here » NightStar72, posted by Susan47 on March 31, 2005, at 10:12:46
welcome!!! It sounds like you are going through a lot right now. Hang in there, share your stories (we ALL babble- hence the name- so don't be embarrassed by it. I am probably one of the worst offenders!!)
And please keep in mind that you may be sad because of all that you are going through, not because "meds aren't working". They help you maintain a sort of sanity, but they can't make your problems go away. You have a right to feel sad, it's okay.
And whatever comes to your mind that you want feedback on- or just want to get off your chest, please feel free in joining the rest of us while we do the same.
Welcome, NightStar72 !!!
-sunny10
Posted by NightStar72 on March 31, 2005, at 16:27:07
In reply to Re: Hello - New here, posted by sunny10 on March 31, 2005, at 11:26:21
Thanks much for the welcome, it is hard feeling down like this, I thought the medication was going to help me, I have been happy, or at least better a few weeks now. Just got approved for financial assistance, and finally got some extra money into help. Plus happy that soon will have housing assistance.
My ex won't go in with me, until the eviction goes through so that makes me sad. He don't like the idea of living in public housing.
I am pretty tired today, feel a bit back to that foggy feeling I had first few weeks, just can't seem to shake it.
I will try to be more social, in visiting with others, but it is not often that I do, and I appologize now for that.
Thanks, much. Pammila
Posted by sunny10 on April 1, 2005, at 9:38:44
In reply to Re: Hello - New here, posted by NightStar72 on March 31, 2005, at 16:27:07
I am glad for you that the financial side of things is shaping up. My gut reation to your ex's view on the housing is that maybe it would do a world of good for him to have to live apart from you for a little while. Sometimes we need to miss someone for a little while before we remember the good parts about our relationships.
Things may be rough right now, but they weren't always this way; you weren't always feeling this way- maybe this will give him a chance to recall the better, happier times and be more willing to do his part to fix what is broken right now.
Sometimes it is hard to see the forest while mired in trees...
There is a lot to be said for doing your own changing. I am currently reading a book about how one person can make a two person relationship better all on their own. I can't remember the title right now... But the point of the book is that when couples have arguments over and over, it becomes like playing a part in a play. We say or do things the same old way and they respond the same old way, or vice versa. The premise of the book is if you can make some changes as to how you deal with stresful situations, you can teach yourself how to "act" instead of how to "react". The idea is that if you change your lines in the play, they can't respond the same old way, they'll have to find a new way to respond also. And hopefully a new way of communicating will enter the relationship and help fix what is wrong...
As I said, I am currently reading it. I have been "talking the talk" so far (gotta admit that I am doing a little more burying of my feelings than is healthy instead of working through them like the book suggests) and actually the tension IS beginning to ease between us. My personal tension is high- but that's my fault for not dealing with the issue itself (the WHAT I'm reacting to)- but I'm working on it! It's a start...we are arguing less.
This is the CBT part that is prevalent in therapy today. "Act like you're happy and you'll become happy"... it's over-simplification, of course, because we all need to get to the bottom of the underlying issues which make us unhappy. But one thing is unfortunately true out there in real life... "laugh and the world laughs with you, cry and you cry alone". I use that cliche because it has serious ramifications within our relationships. When I am morose, my SO doesn't want to spend time with me- when he doesn't want to spend time with me, I think he doesn't love me anymore- when I think he doesn't love me anymore, I get more depressed.... it can be a vicious cycle.
So I put on my happy face with him and MAKE SURE that I leave myself enough alone-time to experience my true feelings and make my sad faces, et cetera...
OOOOOOOOOOHHHHHHHHHh, sunny10 has now babbled a whole lot about her life, and opinions, and what she's trying to make work.....
As usual, take out of it what you feel may work for you and disregard the rest... Just know that I share because I truly want to help... I'm just human, though, and what I'm trying to accomplish may not be what works to make you feel better- but I'm trying the only way I know how...
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