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Posted by Angel Girl on January 31, 2005, at 12:51:18
What am I supposed to do with all this pent up hypomanic energy???? Nobody's around, both boards I go to are too quiet, my friend is away and not seeing me *finally* feeling good and all I can think about is liquor and sex.
I want to enjoy this but not by myself. Where is everybody? And I'm certainly not looking forward to the inevitable crash that is going to follow.
Somebody PLEASE come and play with me before I get myself into some *real* trouble that could be harmful to me.
AG (who can't even find her halo right now)
Posted by Angel Girl on January 31, 2005, at 13:05:06
In reply to Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!!, posted by Angel Girl on January 31, 2005, at 12:51:18
Can somebody PLEASE tell me how to deal with these INTENSE feelings? I'm not used to this. The last time I was like this I got into some serious trouble. I can feel it getting more and more intense, too intense.
AG (who's totally out of control now)
Posted by sunny10 on January 31, 2005, at 13:21:36
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!!, posted by Angel Girl on January 31, 2005, at 13:05:06
AG, I think you've just told me that you need to call your pdoc.....
Follow your own advice, please.
(yes, go back and read your post... you said that you're not used to feelings this intense and that you realize they will backfire... CALL THE DOC, please. He/she will help with meds to level you out so you don't smash on your face when you land)
Love you- don't want anything bad to happen here...I feel you reaching for help... take mine.... call the doc, please)
Posted by Angel Girl on January 31, 2005, at 14:52:40
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!!, posted by sunny10 on January 31, 2005, at 13:21:36
Hey sunny
The only kind of help I'm looking for is somebody to share this with. If I told my pdoc about this then she will decrease my ADs and there is NO way that I want that because inevitably I'll be needing them very soon. This is the first time I've been this hypomanic for a very long time and I'm fully intending on enjoying every second on it. Sorry you misunderstood, the help I was crying out for wasn't medical. LMAO!!!
Thanks anyway, but this will remain a secret from my pdoc. This sure as hell beats bloody depression any day of the week. LMAO!!!
AG
> AG, I think you've just told me that you need to call your pdoc.....
>> Follow your own advice, please.
>
> (yes, go back and read your post... you said that you're not used to feelings this intense and that you realize they will backfire... CALL THE DOC, please. He/she will help with meds to level you out so you don't smash on your face when you land)
>
> Love you- don't want anything bad to happen here...I feel you reaching for help... take mine.... call the doc, please)
Posted by sunny10 on January 31, 2005, at 15:17:44
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!! » sunny10, posted by Angel Girl on January 31, 2005, at 14:52:40
I'm only worried that it will turn BiPolar on you... Yoyo-ing back and forth will not be healthy for you. She probably won't ease back on the AD's, but she MIGHT add a very mild AP....
Best wishes only for you- take care tonight, okay?
Be well- I'll chat with you tomorrow,
Sunny10
Posted by Angel Girl on January 31, 2005, at 16:59:26
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!!, posted by sunny10 on January 31, 2005, at 15:17:44
sunny
You're confusing me. Turn BP? I'm already BP. I've been waiting for this for a very long time. For once I feel GOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDD. I'm not sure about her not wanting to decrease my ADs, last time I was there I asked for an increase and she turned me down because she didn't want me to go hypomanic. Well guess what pdoc, it happened anyway. LMAO!!! What's so bad about feeling this good? I'm kinda enjoying it really. It's like taking drugs to get high without taking the drugs. LMAO!!! I tried taking some Xanax cuz my heart was racing so much I thought it was going to pound right out of my chest, they put me to sleep but here I am awake once more and just as high. I was supposed to go to the drug store and get my refills that I phoned in, I don't think I should drive, so maybe I'll get them delievered. Only problem is that I'm hungry and there's nothing around here to eat. I wanted to get something to eat when I was going to go to the drugstore but since I don't think driving is so good idea, what am I going to do about eating? Haven't figured that one out yet.
I don't want my pdoc to give me any meds that will take this oh so good feeling away. I'm loving this. I know I will inevitably crash and crash hard but I'll deal with that when it comes.
Thanks for your help though. C ya tomorrow I guess, unless I'm in the abyss then, at which point I might just stay in bed.
AG (who is anything but angelic right now) LMAO!!!
> I'm only worried that it will turn BiPolar on you... Yoyo-ing back and forth will not be healthy for you. She probably won't ease back on the AD's, but she MIGHT add a very mild AP....
>
> Best wishes only for you- take care tonight, okay?
> Be well- I'll chat with you tomorrow,
> Sunny10
Posted by Angel Girl on January 31, 2005, at 17:13:41
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!! » sunny10, posted by Angel Girl on January 31, 2005, at 16:59:26
They're not making any more deliveries tonight. Their driver has gone home. So, no Effexor XR for tonight or tomorrow morning and only 1/2 the amount this morning that I should've taken. Ooops!!! Oh well, as long as I don't come crashing down off the wall like Humpty Dumpty!!! LMAO
Posted by Susan47 on January 31, 2005, at 18:20:11
In reply to Ooops!!! I'll have to do without my ADs tonight!, posted by Angel Girl on January 31, 2005, at 17:13:41
Refresh my memory but do you go out much? Because if you don't and you're feeling like this maybe now is the time to go out and take advantage of your good feelings, use the energy to create something positive, even if it's just the feeling that you're alive and part of the world, because it sounds like you don't have that energy very often.
Posted by Angel Girl on January 31, 2005, at 23:35:40
In reply to Re: Ooops!!! I'll have to do without my ADs tonight!, posted by Susan47 on January 31, 2005, at 18:20:11
> Refresh my memory but do you go out much? Because if you don't and you're feeling like this maybe now is the time to go out and take advantage of your good feelings, use the energy to create something positive, even if it's just the feeling that you're alive and part of the world, because it sounds like you don't have that energy very often.
No, I don't go out much and if I went out with the way I'm feeling now, it could lead to dangerous activities. It is safer for me to stay home. I've been down this road before.AG
Posted by Angielala on February 1, 2005, at 12:51:59
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!! » sunny10, posted by Angel Girl on January 31, 2005, at 16:59:26
I was in your shoes about a month ago... so I'm feeling for you... and I also know what you mean about the doc...
Are you on a mood stabilizer? Not that it is going to solve anythign today... but jsut wondering for the future.
I always get myself into trouble during these times... but what I try to do is do things with my hands... as stupid as they may be... I started glueing broken stained glass onto things... and it worked, until the glue made me light-headed... haha... then I started smoking pot liek a chimney... and while it helped for a bit, it made me even more ancy to do something. So what I ended up doing (and it took everything in me to get me to do this) was to run myself into the ground with jogging. I HATE jogging. But the further I went, the more ticked off I got, and the longer I jogged. Then I actually slept for more than 2 hours.
I knwo what you mean about the boards being too quiet too... try doing this... go to blogger.com. Make your own blog (you can write about ANYTHING!) and send the link here... then people will be on your blog and you control it... I did that too, and it helped a lot (http://ramblingsofacrazygirl.blogspot.com)
Just a few ideas.
BECAREFUL!
> sunny
>
> You're confusing me. Turn BP? I'm already BP. I've been waiting for this for a very long time. For once I feel GOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDD. I'm not sure about her not wanting to decrease my ADs, last time I was there I asked for an increase and she turned me down because she didn't want me to go hypomanic. Well guess what pdoc, it happened anyway. LMAO!!! What's so bad about feeling this good? I'm kinda enjoying it really. It's like taking drugs to get high without taking the drugs. LMAO!!! I tried taking some Xanax cuz my heart was racing so much I thought it was going to pound right out of my chest, they put me to sleep but here I am awake once more and just as high. I was supposed to go to the drug store and get my refills that I phoned in, I don't think I should drive, so maybe I'll get them delievered. Only problem is that I'm hungry and there's nothing around here to eat. I wanted to get something to eat when I was going to go to the drugstore but since I don't think driving is so good idea, what am I going to do about eating? Haven't figured that one out yet.
>
> I don't want my pdoc to give me any meds that will take this oh so good feeling away. I'm loving this. I know I will inevitably crash and crash hard but I'll deal with that when it comes.
>
> Thanks for your help though. C ya tomorrow I guess, unless I'm in the abyss then, at which point I might just stay in bed.
>
> AG (who is anything but angelic right now) LMAO!!!
>
>
>
> > I'm only worried that it will turn BiPolar on you... Yoyo-ing back and forth will not be healthy for you. She probably won't ease back on the AD's, but she MIGHT add a very mild AP....
> >
> > Best wishes only for you- take care tonight, okay?
> > Be well- I'll chat with you tomorrow,
> > Sunny10
>
>
Posted by Angielala on February 1, 2005, at 13:01:56
In reply to Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!!, posted by Angel Girl on January 31, 2005, at 12:51:18
I know I mentioned this already- but I forgot to mention... on blogger.com, you can find a ton of other boards according to keywords (like Bipolar or I like Yellow...)
Keep yourself busy
Posted by sunny10 on February 1, 2005, at 15:07:15
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!!, posted by Angielala on February 1, 2005, at 13:01:56
How are you today?
You were talking about not having enough E XR this morning...Are you holding up okay?
Posted by Angel Girl on February 1, 2005, at 15:47:40
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!!, posted by Angielala on February 1, 2005, at 12:51:59
Yep, believe it or not I am on a mood stabilizer. See how well it works. I've told my pdoc it doesn't work but all she does is up the dosage. Yep, sent me straight into hypomania. I've tried so many of them, I'm not sure there is much left to try. I definitely won't tell her about my hypomania because she will definitely decrease my ADs and I can't have her do that. Depression is my normal state, I can't allow it to get any worse than it already does or I won't be here to talk about it.
I probably despise any form of exercise more than you do. I KNOW I won't do it, even though I should. I don't know what I could do to replace my racing and compulsive thoughts that are harmful for me. I don't even know what I'm interested in anymore, other than music and HOT guys. I don't have to tell you how hard it all is but yet at the same time, it's a very good feeling. If I had somebody to act out my impulses with, I definitely would. I'm not good at self-control. Usually when I'm hypomanic, I'm irritable and ready for a fight but this is the first time in a long time that it was euphoric. I like euphoric, I don't like irritability and hostility because it's not *me*, at least not the *real* me that is buried somewhere deep inside screaming to get out.
I'll give some thought to doing a blog. I LOVE the name of yours. I'll check it out.
Thanks,
AG (who can't even figure out how she feels today, I'm all over the map)
> I was in your shoes about a month ago... so I'm feeling for you... and I also know what you mean about the doc...
>
> Are you on a mood stabilizer? Not that it is going to solve anythign today... but jsut wondering for the future.
>
> I always get myself into trouble during these times... but what I try to do is do things with my hands... as stupid as they may be... I started glueing broken stained glass onto things... and it worked, until the glue made me light-headed... haha... then I started smoking pot liek a chimney... and while it helped for a bit, it made me even more ancy to do something. So what I ended up doing (and it took everything in me to get me to do this) was to run myself into the ground with jogging. I HATE jogging. But the further I went, the more ticked off I got, and the longer I jogged. Then I actually slept for more than 2 hours.
>
> I knwo what you mean about the boards being too quiet too... try doing this... go to blogger.com. Make your own blog (you can write about ANYTHING!) and send the link here... then people will be on your blog and you control it... I did that too, and it helped a lot (http://ramblingsofacrazygirl.blogspot.com)
>
> Just a few ideas.
>
> BECAREFUL!
>
> > sunny
> >
> > You're confusing me. Turn BP? I'm already BP. I've been waiting for this for a very long time. For once I feel GOOOOOOOOOODDDDDDD. I'm not sure about her not wanting to decrease my ADs, last time I was there I asked for an increase and she turned me down because she didn't want me to go hypomanic. Well guess what pdoc, it happened anyway. LMAO!!! What's so bad about feeling this good? I'm kinda enjoying it really. It's like taking drugs to get high without taking the drugs. LMAO!!! I tried taking some Xanax cuz my heart was racing so much I thought it was going to pound right out of my chest, they put me to sleep but here I am awake once more and just as high. I was supposed to go to the drug store and get my refills that I phoned in, I don't think I should drive, so maybe I'll get them delievered. Only problem is that I'm hungry and there's nothing around here to eat. I wanted to get something to eat when I was going to go to the drugstore but since I don't think driving is so good idea, what am I going to do about eating? Haven't figured that one out yet.
> >
> > I don't want my pdoc to give me any meds that will take this oh so good feeling away. I'm loving this. I know I will inevitably crash and crash hard but I'll deal with that when it comes.
> >
> > Thanks for your help though. C ya tomorrow I guess, unless I'm in the abyss then, at which point I might just stay in bed.
> >
> > AG (who is anything but angelic right now) LMAO!!!
> >
> >
> >
> > > I'm only worried that it will turn BiPolar on you... Yoyo-ing back and forth will not be healthy for you. She probably won't ease back on the AD's, but she MIGHT add a very mild AP....
> > >
> > > Best wishes only for you- take care tonight, okay?
> > > Be well- I'll chat with you tomorrow,
> > > Sunny10
> >
> >
>
>
Posted by Angel Girl on February 1, 2005, at 15:48:40
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!!, posted by Angielala on February 1, 2005, at 13:01:56
> I know I mentioned this already- but I forgot to mention... on blogger.com, you can find a ton of other boards according to keywords (like Bipolar or I like Yellow...)
>
> Keep yourself busyThanks, I don't recall you mentioning that part before.
AG
Posted by Angel Girl on February 1, 2005, at 16:14:40
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, AngelGirl, posted by sunny10 on February 1, 2005, at 15:07:15
> How are you today?
> You were talking about not having enough E XR this morning...
>
> Are you holding up okay?Hi sunny
I don't really know how I am today. See my post way below 'what mood am i in?'. Right now I'm back to feeling miserable and tired and starving and there's nothing to eat here except for peanut butter, cheeze whiz, bread and salad. I crave *real* food. Either meat or pizza (my favourite), not that I should spend money on it.
At least my meds were delivered since I posted that post below and I've taken my ADs. I actually ran out of both of them. I guess I don't really know how I am but the laughter is gone. <sigh>
AG
Posted by Angielala on February 1, 2005, at 19:10:59
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!! » Angielala, posted by Angel Girl on February 1, 2005, at 15:47:40
It's the worst tease- that euphoric feeling... we get that horrible depression, and then this- the best feeling ever... and then we learn that good feeling is bad.... how about confusing us a little more. No wonder we get irritated.
Becareful with the guys... the only way I can curb myself from them is knowing how gross I'll feel when the hypo stops. Like we ever stop ourselves because of what we will feel like in the future.. haha. It's so easily said... jsut try and be careful. I try and keep a journal too- because when I come out of the manias, I don't remember much of what happened.
I hear you about the exercize... it was a shot, though. Do you like movies? Have you ever seen "The Hours"? I hate Nicole Kidman, but that movie is all about us... if you ahve seen it, you know what I mean. It's a good movie to watch, and it will give you something to do too.
Let me know how the swing goes- I'll be here.
Posted by Angielala on February 1, 2005, at 19:11:47
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!! » Angielala, posted by Angel Girl on February 1, 2005, at 15:48:40
Haha- good thing I mentioned it "again"...
> > I know I mentioned this already- but I forgot to mention... on blogger.com, you can find a ton of other boards according to keywords (like Bipolar or I like Yellow...)
> >
> > Keep yourself busy
>
> Thanks, I don't recall you mentioning that part before.
>
> AG
Posted by Angel Girl on February 2, 2005, at 0:37:05
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!!, posted by Angielala on February 1, 2005, at 19:10:59
I try to avoid thinking about what follows, that would ruin my mood. It's like a black cloud that follows you waiting for the rain to come out and spoil a perfectly good day. HOT guys, is there anything better? YUMMY!!! I saw you had a post at psych central about that movie. Is it in the theaters now or on DVD? Are you saying it is about BP, does Nicole play a BP person? I would be very interested in it. I seem to be *drawn* to movies that involve mental illness. I doubt I'll get to the actual theater but I'll try to remember it when it is released on DVD. I will definitely want to catch this one. Thanks for the suggestion. BTW, I didn't respond to you at psych central, not because I didn't want to but I got side-tracked, that happens so easily. I apologize for not doing so.
I'm not sure where my mood is right now. I usually crash and burn after my hypomania is gone but not this time. I'm not sure whether my hypomania is transforming into irritability and hostility because I certainly can feel that rearing it's ugly head right now or whether I'm actually in a calm state. If so, that would be a very new one for me because I don't recognize calm. I haven't experienced it since 2001. I'm treading slowly to see what unfolds but I feel the irritability and hostility fighting to get out. <no pun intended> I have very little if any control over it or even controlling it once it is unleashed. Keep good thoughts for me if you will. I do so hate the hostility stage. It's not pretty.
AG
> It's the worst tease- that euphoric feeling... we get that horrible depression, and then this- the best feeling ever... and then we learn that good feeling is bad.... how about confusing us a little more. No wonder we get irritated.
>
> Becareful with the guys... the only way I can curb myself from them is knowing how gross I'll feel when the hypo stops. Like we ever stop ourselves because of what we will feel like in the future.. haha. It's so easily said... jsut try and be careful. I try and keep a journal too- because when I come out of the manias, I don't remember much of what happened.
>
> I hear you about the exercize... it was a shot, though. Do you like movies? Have you ever seen "The Hours"? I hate Nicole Kidman, but that movie is all about us... if you ahve seen it, you know what I mean. It's a good movie to watch, and it will give you something to do too.
>
> Let me know how the swing goes- I'll be here.
Posted by Angel Girl on February 2, 2005, at 0:38:34
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!!, posted by Angielala on February 1, 2005, at 19:11:47
I think all these drugs have fried my brain and the first thing to go was my memory. <sigh>
AG
> Haha- good thing I mentioned it "again"...
>
> > > I know I mentioned this already- but I forgot to mention... on blogger.com, you can find a ton of other boards according to keywords (like Bipolar or I like Yellow...)
> > >
> > > Keep yourself busy
> >
> > Thanks, I don't recall you mentioning that part before.
> >
> > AG
>
>
Posted by Angielala on February 2, 2005, at 10:38:10
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!! » Angielala, posted by Angel Girl on February 2, 2005, at 0:37:05
"The Hours" is on DVD now- it came out in 2002 I think...
It's actually about the lives of three women, all three have BP and are shown in different lights (and it's not like they actually discuss BP... you'll see) ONe of the women is Virginia Woolfe, who had BP before they even named it- instead they just called it "madness" another is based on a character in the book that she is writing and the other woman is reading the book that Virignia is writing, it's confusing to explain, easier to watch.
If you are drawn to movies that deal with mental illness- definitely watch it...
Check out "Garden State" too if you haven't already!
> I try to avoid thinking about what follows, that would ruin my mood. It's like a black cloud that follows you waiting for the rain to come out and spoil a perfectly good day. HOT guys, is there anything better? YUMMY!!! I saw you had a post at psych central about that movie. Is it in the theaters now or on DVD? Are you saying it is about BP, does Nicole play a BP person? I would be very interested in it. I seem to be *drawn* to movies that involve mental illness. I doubt I'll get to the actual theater but I'll try to remember it when it is released on DVD. I will definitely want to catch this one. Thanks for the suggestion. BTW, I didn't respond to you at psych central, not because I didn't want to but I got side-tracked, that happens so easily. I apologize for not doing so.
>
> I'm not sure where my mood is right now. I usually crash and burn after my hypomania is gone but not this time. I'm not sure whether my hypomania is transforming into irritability and hostility because I certainly can feel that rearing it's ugly head right now or whether I'm actually in a calm state. If so, that would be a very new one for me because I don't recognize calm. I haven't experienced it since 2001. I'm treading slowly to see what unfolds but I feel the irritability and hostility fighting to get out. <no pun intended> I have very little if any control over it or even controlling it once it is unleashed. Keep good thoughts for me if you will. I do so hate the hostility stage. It's not pretty.
>
> AG
>
>
> > It's the worst tease- that euphoric feeling... we get that horrible depression, and then this- the best feeling ever... and then we learn that good feeling is bad.... how about confusing us a little more. No wonder we get irritated.
> >
> > Becareful with the guys... the only way I can curb myself from them is knowing how gross I'll feel when the hypo stops. Like we ever stop ourselves because of what we will feel like in the future.. haha. It's so easily said... jsut try and be careful. I try and keep a journal too- because when I come out of the manias, I don't remember much of what happened.
> >
> > I hear you about the exercize... it was a shot, though. Do you like movies? Have you ever seen "The Hours"? I hate Nicole Kidman, but that movie is all about us... if you ahve seen it, you know what I mean. It's a good movie to watch, and it will give you something to do too.
> >
> > Let me know how the swing goes- I'll be here.
>
>
Posted by Angel Girl on February 2, 2005, at 10:45:37
In reply to Re: Hypomanic energy, somebody please help me!!!, posted by Angielala on February 2, 2005, at 10:38:10
Thank you. I'll definitely check them out. I'll have to write down the names so I don't forget.
AG
> "The Hours" is on DVD now- it came out in 2002 I think...
>
> It's actually about the lives of three women, all three have BP and are shown in different lights (and it's not like they actually discuss BP... you'll see) ONe of the women is Virginia Woolfe, who had BP before they even named it- instead they just called it "madness" another is based on a character in the book that she is writing and the other woman is reading the book that Virignia is writing, it's confusing to explain, easier to watch.
>
> If you are drawn to movies that deal with mental illness- definitely watch it...
>
> Check out "Garden State" too if you haven't already!
>
>
Posted by Angielala on February 2, 2005, at 13:17:01
In reply to Good movies » Angielala, posted by Angel Girl on February 2, 2005, at 10:45:37
Are you a movie fan in general? because I can give you lists and lsits of good movies accroding to the subject you want to see.. you let me know!
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