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Posted by fallingstar on August 22, 2004, at 18:48:21
This is a repost cuz I cannot find the first one.
I hate being this way. I hate feeling this way. I am trying so hard. I want to work from home, and I am so sad and so worn out I am afraid no one will ever fully accept me and that I am worthless. I am trying so hard, doing my best, and I feel so much like nothing. I started crying last night for no reason. I feel like the world is ending and I get stressed out by the littlest things that normal people don't. Other people just take a tough attitude and say stop whining, just deal with it, well I try to pull up my boot straps. I don't know how to feel better. Why did God make me this way. :(
Posted by Shadowplayers721 on August 22, 2004, at 22:54:33
In reply to Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate this, posted by fallingstar on August 22, 2004, at 18:48:21
FallingStar,
My personal belief is that God made us perfect souls. We are just housed in a suffering
s(hell). We (meaning I) have to get back to the truth and it all falls in place again. This shell is temporary. My Soul is perfect and complete. It can't be destroyed by me or anyone else. That's my belief...
Posted by woolav on August 23, 2004, at 10:29:23
In reply to Re: Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate this, posted by Shadowplayers721 on August 22, 2004, at 22:54:33
Hi, I just wanted to say I have felt the same way as you for many years. It wasnt until I accepted the fact that I have a chemical imbalance in my brain which causes me to be the way I am. (and that is not my/your fault)
I used to look around at people and think, "why cant i be normal like them?" and it would just throw me into major depression, where i would cry everyday because *I* wasnt normal. I had gotten so down one night, that I called the mental health # on my insurance card and told them that i was thinking of suicide. I was promptly sent to a therapist, then a pdoc. It has been years and many drugs later and I am still trying to find the right meds for me, but I dont blame myself anymore for how i am. And that has helped me a great deal. I still get depressed here and there, but I know I have to fight this *disease* and I feel like God will give me the strenth to do it. And I know you can get through this too.
We are who we are and have to love ourselves. I know its sooo hard to do that. But without it, we have nothing...
Take Care,
Sandy
Posted by AuntieMel on August 23, 2004, at 11:53:26
In reply to Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate this, posted by fallingstar on August 22, 2004, at 18:48:21
I think we all feel this way. And the worse thing about it is being told that it is our "choice" to feel this way. Right! Like I just got out of bed one morning and decided I was tired of feeling good and I would now "choose" to feel like donkey dung.
Think about the word "bootstrap." If we pull ourselves up by them, aren't we going to fall on our faces?
We didn't get this way overnight and we aren't going to get better overnight either. Babysteps is a better word. Take a couple of steps and go smack! down on your diaper. Next time a couple more, then a couple more 'till you can walk without falling *all* the time. Then learn how to run. With the wind.
Posted by B2chica on August 23, 2004, at 12:45:56
In reply to Re: Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate this, posted by Shadowplayers721 on August 22, 2004, at 22:54:33
Shadows, your post is absolutely incredible. i feel the EXACT same way. You just said it so beautifully- you've warmed my heart, thank you.
I took a few days off work (and babble) but it was mixed. I just am LOADED with fear and can't seem to shake it this time. Anyway, this post makes me feel warm inside.
Thank You (needed that).
b2c.
> My personal belief is that God made us perfect souls. We are just housed in a suffering
> s(hell). We (meaning I) have to get back to the truth and it all falls in place again. This shell is temporary. My Soul is perfect and complete. It can't be destroyed by me or anyone else. That's my belief...
Posted by fallingstar on August 23, 2004, at 17:51:15
In reply to Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate this, posted by fallingstar on August 22, 2004, at 18:48:21
Yeah, I think many of this feel this way at one point or another. I really do need to stop blaming myself, because that is the worst part of it all. It may take a lifetime but I certainly didn't do anything to cause myself to feel this way on purpose. I pray everyday, and do whatever I can...sometimes it can be so hard. But thank you all of you for insight and may we all be strong with the help of God, and others.
Posted by fallingstar on August 23, 2004, at 17:54:29
In reply to Re: Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate this, posted by Shadowplayers721 on August 22, 2004, at 22:54:33
> FallingStar,
>
> My personal belief is that God made us perfect souls. We are just housed in a suffering
> s(hell). We (meaning I) have to get back to the truth and it all falls in place again. This shell is temporary. My Soul is perfect and complete. It can't be destroyed by me or anyone else. That's my belief...
I tried to post a response the first time didnt work, so here goes again.
Thank you so much for this beautiful post. I am going to print it and keep it on my computer :)
It really is a nice wary to look at things, kinda gives hope.
Posted by Susan47 on August 23, 2004, at 18:12:20
In reply to Re: Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate th, posted by AuntieMel on August 23, 2004, at 11:53:26
Auntie Mel I really like the way you expressed yourself. Thanks for the smack! down on your diaper vision.
Posted by Atticus on August 23, 2004, at 20:41:20
In reply to Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate this, posted by fallingstar on August 22, 2004, at 18:48:21
I gave up asking why this spring after my suicide attempt, when the pdocs finally found an AD that works for me (after 8 really difficult years!) At this point, I figure it's like someone having diabetes and I was dealt kind of a bad hand but I've got to play the cards I have as best I can. One thing that might be helpful is something that was always stressed to me in group: no one in the whole world can truly be considered mentally and emotionally "normal." There just isn't this baseline perfect person somewhere whose brain chemistry is the model against which all others are compared. It's more like a continuum, or a bell curve, and we fall toward one extreme of the line. Please don't get down on yourself for not being "normal" -- those people don't exist, and the ones who believe they are "normal" are fooling themselves. Giving up striving to be "normal" has helped me accept and cope with my mental illness a lot better. The illness is just one part of us, albeit a pretty damned unpleasant one. It really does help not to compare yourself to other people who seem so happy and well-adjusted. I just measure my progress, such as it is, against where I've been, which includes a lock-up psych ward; I try to be my own baseline. I don't know if this approach is at all helpful in your case, but I hope it makes you just a little more comfortable in your own skin. Atticus
Posted by Jai Narayan on August 23, 2004, at 22:41:01
In reply to Re: Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate this » fallingstar, posted by Atticus on August 23, 2004, at 20:41:20
Hey Atticus, I made an impassioned speach about Normal. But my computer died. So I am on my last legs and just want to say that NORMAL is not what I thought it was supposed to be. I am not normal either....I will never be, in my wildest dreams normal. Oh well. chemistry being what it is. I like that you just accept this fact...I am inspired.
I am just hopeful that I can post tonight.
As my computer is dying.
I may not be able to post for a while.
I was just told that my first husband has just died. I am so silly I need proof.
My computer is so disgusting I can't even get it to work. I am lucky if this post will go through.
Posted by Susan47 on August 23, 2004, at 23:02:18
In reply to Re: Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate th, posted by Jai Narayan on August 23, 2004, at 22:41:01
Jai,
I think this is the first time I've ever posted to you, I just thought your post was really touching. You just sound so honest and it sounds like you're going through a tough time, I just wanted to encourage you.
Posted by Jai Narayan on August 23, 2004, at 23:19:49
In reply to Re: Hate being mentally /emotionally ill » Jai Narayan, posted by Susan47 on August 23, 2004, at 23:02:18
thank you....we all go through it...don't we.
you are so sweet to say that.
thank you
Posted by SAW on August 24, 2004, at 1:49:11
In reply to Re: Hate being mentally /emotionally ill, posted by Jai Narayan on August 23, 2004, at 23:19:49
I, too, was touched by your honesty and comment about needing proof. I feel that way about my first husband, though he's not dead yet.
Wishing you strength
Regards
Sabrina
Posted by SAW on August 24, 2004, at 1:53:50
In reply to Re: Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate th, posted by AuntieMel on August 23, 2004, at 11:53:26
Dear Mel
I no longer suffer from depression. From now on I have a bad case of donkey dung!
Thank you for bring a smile to my face.
Regards
Sabrina
Posted by woolav on August 24, 2004, at 11:58:50
In reply to New name for depression » AuntieMel, posted by SAW on August 24, 2004, at 1:53:50
Hello, I was reading the posts and saw yours. I am curious as to what meds finally worked for you. I have been trying to find the *right* ones for 7-8 years too.....
Sandy
Posted by Atticus on August 24, 2004, at 15:50:34
In reply to Re: New name for depression=Atticus, posted by woolav on August 24, 2004, at 11:58:50
The one that is finally actually doing something for me (after all the SSRIs, all the HORRIBLE tricyclics, and even some anti-psychotics failed) is Effexor XR, an SNRI (Serotonin and Norepinephrin Re-uptake Inhibitor). It does have some pretty powerful side effects, so you might want to check out the Effexor discussion thread on Psycho-Babble. I was first given it this spring while I was in a lock-up psych ward after a suicide attempt -- the lowest I've ever been -- and it's really worked wonders. Atticus
Posted by AuntieMel on August 24, 2004, at 16:20:42
In reply to Re: Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate th, posted by Jai Narayan on August 23, 2004, at 22:41:01
That's probably the only reason I went to my dad's funeral.
Posted by Jai Narayan on August 24, 2004, at 18:35:03
In reply to proof? » Jai Narayan, posted by AuntieMel on August 24, 2004, at 16:20:42
Okay, that cracked me up.
After a hard day and evening....
you have gotten me to chuckle.
thanks
Posted by malthus on August 24, 2004, at 20:11:55
In reply to Re: Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate this » fallingstar, posted by Atticus on August 23, 2004, at 20:41:20
Yes, everybody's "house of cards" could fall at any moment...
malthus
Posted by woolav on August 25, 2004, at 11:30:13
In reply to Re: Hate being mentally /emotionally ill I hate this » Atticus, posted by malthus on August 24, 2004, at 20:11:55
Thanks for responding about your meds. unfortunately- I have tried effexor and didnt benefit from it. I seem to be getting some reprieve now from prozac and lamictal. I wish you continued sucess and am glad you are doing better!
Sandy
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